Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

@Zoe7 Thanks you for those beautiful words. I too am thinking of you and holding you close. I have bonded more with you and a few others than I ever thought was possible through mutual understanding and compassion. Please take care of yourself hun because you matter a great deal 💜🦋

[Zoe7]

My absolute pleasure @Former-Member 

I think the whole world (and by that I mean the forum world lol) know how special the bond F&H and I have - but there are a few others here that run a very close second - and you are one of those Nell. It is by no means 'choosing' favourites - it is simply a connection that has been formed out of mutual understanding - and that is gold when we are living with what we are living with Hon.

[Former-Member]

@Zoe7 I think everybody can see that bond between you and F&H and it is so special. I am glad that you have it because it helps both of you so much. 

I do think we naturally connect with certain people on here, I guess it is being able to relate to certain others in words and unspoken words too. And yes you are right, it is gold when we are living this way. 

[Zoe7]

It does mirror the connections people make irl but for those of us who don't have family of our own or friends (or even work) the connections here are definitely important. I was never 'online' until late last year - and that was born out of boredom when I was sick. FB etc. weren't even on my radar @Former-Member let alone a forum such as this. I am grateful to my GP for having enough insight to see how alone I was - and how difficult it was for me to do this on my own - and mention SANE and the forum. When I first joined I honestly did not expect anything - and I certainly did not expect to stay - but it will be exactly a year in a few days and that is quite amazing to me - just the fact I am still alive is amazing 

[Former-Member]

@Zoe7  I Find that I can talk to people on here so much easier than irl. But I was/am always that loner, that socially awkward one, and still are irl. Maybe that’s b/c of my past, I guess I will never know. I have not told anyone I am on this forum.

I am glad your gp had enough insight into telling you about this forum. It sounds like your gp is amazing and we probably need more like that everywhere. Wow, coming up a year, that is great. I am glad you are still alive hun.  If you weren’t, then I would never had have the honour of ‘knowing’ you. And you would never have made that super special bond with F&H 💜💜

[Zoe7]

I can barely talk to my GP or pdoc @Former-Member Even when I was seeing my psychologist it all had to be done by me writing or her asking questions. Then it would often be a nod or shake of the head - and quite often my physical reactions to questions or statements. She was very perceptive but itbecame way too much. 

I can stand in front of a large group of people (well I used to be able to) and speak when delivering PD but will deflect any andall questions about me. I am an extremely private and careful person with disclosing things about ,yself - that is why I can't believe some of the things I have put on here. I have 'slipped up' a couple of times with a couple of things - realised immediately and edited out. That is okay as no-one who is not a member would have seen - and no member would have had any idea of how identifiable it could have been unless they actually know me irl.

[Former-Member]

Oh @Zoe7 so understand. I email my psych every week before my appointment because i know that i wont be able to tell him in person what i am thinking and feeling. Helps a lot.
As much as i would love to keep talking to you, my meds are kicking in. I hope you get some sleep tonight if only for a little time. I do like this time on here, much quieter.
Good night gorgeous butterfly, thinking of you always 💜💜

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member Goodnight Nellbell - I am just so happy to hear that you are finally getting sleepy and that the meds are helping. Yes I like this time of night too Chat soon Hon 

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope Hi Hon. I was intending to post much earlier to you but upset myself and had to leave. I am ok(ish) now but very aware that even the smallest thing may 'set me off' again. I still have a headache and nausea comes and goes - so I am treading carefully and taking it as easy as I can.

I hope you are feeling a little better today - at least had some sleep (and know where your shoes are lol).

Chat soon 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Still feeling physically like I have been h-it by a bus @Zoe7..... I will see how I go. I went to church this morning ...., with shoes on lol ..... but felt and am still feeling exhausted.

Think I am going to need to lie down for th afternoon.