Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

I bought a remembrance poppy today for tomorrow (today now) .... my mother always bought them, and now I do .... and so do my girls.

I love that you bought a Daniel Morcombe rose.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Starting to doze off here my lovelies .....

I see @Appleblossom around.

I hope you’re all starting to get sleepy now too.  I will head off before I face-plant ... lol ... and see y’all later in the morning.

😴💕

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope Had it since they came out a few years ago 

It feels strange not being at school for a second Remembrance Day - I usually organise the school based activities around the day - especially making poppies with the kids. This is the first year I haven't picked up the wreath as well. It really does feel like so long ago now that I had any kind of meaning or normality in my life. Reminders like these make it even harder to see a way forward 

Just saw your last message - goodnight Hon. I hope you sleep well 

[Sans911]

@Faith-and-Hope night sweet lady 😴

[Faith-and-Hope]

You will have to show us all how to make Remembrance poppies @Zoe7 .... transfer it into the forums and bring new purpose to it ..... that is a gift from you that I will certainly treasure ..... look how my mum has linked us ,!?  Who could have thought .....

I am going to draw poppies tomorrow .....

♥️

[Zoe7]

I'll have to try and write instructions for you and add in some photos of each stage. They are really simple to do @Faith-and-Hope - you will be able to make them quickly I'm sure 

yea for your mum 

[Appleblossom]

Good night @Faith-and-Hope  face-plant 

Thanks @Zoe7 for reminding me about Remembrance Day.  I bought a poppy t shirt at the Shrine.

I have a few old knitted poppies I pinned to my curtain ... along with my endangered species cards from the zoo.

[Sans911]

@Zoe7 - it's really hard when life has lost meaning and purpose. I am sorry to say I didn't realise today was Remembrance Day until you posted about it. I use social media daily, but far less in the last 6 months and I haven't switched on the TV in about 18 months. And when you don't work, another connection is also lost. My GP refuses to sign a medical certificate allowing me to work, and I don't know now if and how I might go back to work in an environment where people know very intimate, personal details about me and my MI.

You must be do very tired right now. I haven't a hope of sleep for some time yet. I'm hunting around for another movie to watch

[Zoe7]

Hi @Appleblossom 

I am thinking we should continue on with the Red themed party from last night tomorrow and I can post how to make poppies on their - kind of a craft party 

I am exhausted again @Sans911. My eyes are stinging and so blurry I can't see anything clearly, my head feels like a bowling ball, my whole body is aching, I am really agitated and my mind is racing. i have been trying to settle but it is so hard when I am so tired and feeling so sick. 

The last time I saw my pdoc she asked me how long my income protection covered me for. When I told her she said 'that's great - we have plenty of time'. That really set me back as I thought she was going to say that she thought we would not need all that time. My HR manager will not let me back to work until I am fully cleared by both my gp and pdoc - and according to them it won't be for a long way off yet.

I know I am not even close to being well enough to even considering returning to work - I am still struggling to get through each day - but just having that little bit of hope there means alot - and presently I don't have that.

[Zoe7]

@Appleblossom @Sans911 I think it is best if I log off now. I am really struggling - too much running through my head and feeling really sick now. Thankyou for the company - sorry I have to go 

Goodnight to you both