Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie I am going to log off for a little while - need some Toby and Cat cuddles - will check back in a little later if you are both still around 

[Faith-and-Hope]

I will be here pretty much till I fall asleep @Zoe7.  I am needing a lot of distraction at the moment.

💕

[Faith-and-Hope]

🦋💕

[Zoe7]

You are still awake @Faith-and-Hope - do you still need a distraction?

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Zoe7 ..... yeah, I’m up for a distraction ..... 🤗

[Zoe7]

I have absolutely no idea what to distract you with @Faith-and-Hope - do you have any suggestions lol

[Faith-and-Hope]

I wondered whether you had been working on any more rooms for The Octagonal Room thread .....

@Zoe7

[Zoe7]

Only the one I did for Pepsimax @Faith-and-Hope - had a teary couple of hours - that is why I left earlier - but Toby gave me lots of cuddles and kisses 

There are a couple of people I haven't organised rooms for that regularly come past this thread - I will try to get those organised over the weekend - depending on how I am feeling!

After last night I am very reluctant to try to sleep again - but I know I need to 

[Faith-and-Hope]

It’s tough when we have had a bad outcome, and then we start bracing ourselves for it to happen again when it’s not necessarily so .....

Do you have a coping box @Zoe7 ?

[Zoe7]

No not really @Faith-and-Hope - it is a bit like my safety plan - nothing on there works when I am really low... and nothing seems to work when I don't want to sleep  I am really tired still and a little sleepy tonight so hopefully once the meds fully kick in I will fall asleep quickly with no flashbacks. I have been trying to put an upcoming anniversary out of my mind but it isn't working very well - it is what it is!