Am Not Coping

[oceangirl]

@Zoe7 missing you sweetheart. hoping you're taking a step back to look after you. Hope your class went well today.

[oceangirl]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope 

What have you been up to today?

[Faith-and-Hope]

I am feeling fatigued @oceangirl, so not a lot really .....

I got myself out for coffee this morning, then stayed about home while an electrician did some work on the place ...... then we had some sorting out to do in a rental place we have here and that took all afternoon.

Have cooked dinner and now feeling like a bit of a loose end. Everybody else has gone to bed.

[Faith-and-Hope]

How was your day @oceangirl ?

[oceangirl]

I am feeling the same too @Faith-and-Hope. I am trying to find ways to boost my energy levels.

Am glad you went out this morning for coffee - I went for a walk this morning up to the point and sat and watch the waves. I went home and got swimmers and headed back to the beach for a swim. I am organizing electrical work at home too. I am just getting quotes atm and getting the work done at the end of next week.

I am a bit behind in uni work but I will get there. I go back to drs on Friday to get results from BT and ultrasound. I am worried that my depression is getting worse again, I have halved my medication which was not much at all. I am not too keen to try anything new. I rang the hospital I went to last year for support today but it was really late in the afternoon.  I am waiting for them to make contact with the after care team and for them to pass on a message to my treating DR.

I am thinking I may need to go back into hospital but only for 10 days to get some respite and to prevent me relapsing. I will see what they say tomorrow. I have class tomorrow 2pm to 6pm.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sounds like you’re doing all the right sorts of things @oceangirl ..... and just have to wait for it all to come together.  

I am not sure what to wish you for your test results ...... it is good when they are clear and nothing is wrong, but if they are understaken because there are symptoms that something is wrong, you would rather they .find it and can begin treatment for whatever it is ......

I am having one of those nights of struggling with being in limbo.  I am going through the paces of keeping everything moving forward, but it’s not until hubby’s condition is discovered, diagnosed and treated that we can address things properly with the right sort of integrity.  All I can do in the meantime is what I am doing, and find distractions.

Hi @jackson12 .... 👋

I can see you have Liked a few posts here, and you are a new contributor .... 

Welcome to the forums, and please feel free to join in anywhere when you are ready to.

[Faith-and-Hope]

HI @Maggie if you’re still here ......

I was cooking dinner before, but really appreciated your post ❤️

[Snowie]

@Zoe7I hope today went okish. I know how hard that would have been for you. Missing you hun 

[oceangirl]

I'm trying to do what I can @Faith-and-Hope ... It is slowly coming together for me.

You're right about the results, I have a feeling everything will be okay with them. I think it was just a viral infection. But you never know thats why I thought it was best to have the tests just in case their was a problem.

I am sorry to hear you're still in limbo. I am hoping you're getting help for you too F&H because you deserve it and to be happy too. I understand the feeling of stuckness and I am guessing it would be a similar feeling to be in limbo. I am hoping you can move past this, I think easier said then done.

I am trying to find things that recharge my batteries and one thing that is meant to help with burnouts is lighting candles, the light is meant to give energy. But be careful with the candles and don't leave them unattended.

I am hoping to head down to Melbourne later in the year, I want to catch up with my niece. I am going to do a bit more study. Goodnight F&H..........

[Faith-and-Hope]

Limbo is stuckness, you are right ..... and we do have choices even now, but the consequences or outcomes of those choices have to be for the better, not worse, to make it worth moving in that direction, which is why we are choosing to sit in limbo until something beyond our choices changes ..... but it’s hard.

I will light a candle now - thanks for the idea .....

Goidnight @oceangirl.  It has been lovely chatting to you ..... 😴💕

I hope your class and appointment went okay today @Zoe7.  

Goodnight Hon .... 💐🦋💕