Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

i used to be real trouble looking back it made sense to me at the time and i had my reasons but i definitely have a lot of respect for teachers and support stuff who had to put with me

[Former-Member]

@Zoe7I think that is a wise choice to revisit it with your pdoc. I can understand that it is a goal of yours, it is mine too, but it is way to early to think about it yet. To achieve that goal, I probably have about 100 small goals to achieve before I think about going back to work. So maybe if you can set some small goals and put your big goal away for now. Just b/c we put it away, doesn;t mean it cannot be brought out later down the track.

[Zoe7]

I have a lot of anxiety around the therapy itself also @Former-Member - hasn't worked well before and - as I mentioned earlier today - I have lost trust in a lot of 'people' lately - just when I was beginning to 'let some in' I have been let down again. I cannot be let down again - I know this is my last chance to move forward - or there will be no more thought of work (or anything else).

[Former-Member]

I know you have lost trust in a lot of "people" lately which saddens me b/c you need so much support around you atm.

Can you try not to think of work for now (as hard as that is). Set small managable goals. The saying is you have to walk before you can run. Seems like going back to work is the running part, but you need to walk first. Perhaps the "walking" can be the small managable goals.

I hope that makes sense @Zoe7 

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member the reward of our job is actually 'seeing' kids like you were come through and be able to achieve something in their lives - and sometimes all that is achieved is surviving - and that takes the greatest strength 

[Former-Member]

@Former-Memberwhat people don't realise is that is not always about the grades or results. Some of my students, if they turned up to school every day than that was a win for us. Didn't matter that they had no books or uniform, we got that for them, but some of them just turning up was a win for me.

[Zoe7]

Makes perfect sense @Former-Member I know that is where my pdoc is coming from as well - small steps to begin with.

Funny story - when I was a baby I actually ran before I could walk - true story lol Mum said I started runnning instead of walking - when I tried to walk I would fall over lol - story of my life again 

I honestly am really scared because I am losing faith in my gp - I really don't think she is hearing anything I am saying - maybe because she is stuck how more to help me and leaving it to my pdoc - but it is still so hard when I try to talk and am interrupted. I have lost trust with some 'people' here and even though I tried to resolve that I was let-down again (not members) so that avenue of support is now gone (and that was my main support where I could actuallt 'talk' )

I guess I am both hurt and really sad by that.

[Former-Member]

i agree i guess it does @Zoe7 some teachers literally saved my life
a teacher was the first person i spoke to about what was happening to me and I'm so grateful for their help
it might not of seemed like it at the time but i look back and think without their support i may not of made it as far as i did, even if i did just push them to their absolute limits, i was doing what i thought was the only thing to do

[Former-Member]

i still remember the name of the teacher i first told everything to and her face and what she said after that made me feel the most cared about i had ever felt

[Former-Member]

i was one of those just try to turn up kids @Former-Member