@PeppiPatty
I really appreciate all the support that is recieved from everyone on this forum, it makes writing about what i am going through much easier. In regards to the decision about divorce, we had already made that decidion awhile back, i still find it difficult to process, and i have been trying to maintasin a positive outlook on it, i think it will still creep up and blindside me every now and then about the reality of what is now gone.
I have contemplated just moving states, and altho it is changing scenery etc, it still keeps me in too close a proximity for my liking, i think what i want to do, is explore the world, as i have never had the oppurtunity, from the age of 20 to the age of 32, i have been with my now ex, due to her health and her son, we could never just travel for a few months, and altho at the time, i was always fine with it, a part of me always wanted to see the rest of the world.
I have a few destinations that i definately want to visit, and i know it seems like i am running away from my problems, in actuality, i am trying to define that my mi can't stop me doing what i want.
I have had a few well alot of people ask me how i am doing in regards to the separation, at first i was not so good, but now i am alot better, i was at my old work the other day, catching up with some staff members whom i had become pretty good friends with, they were all amazed at the change in me, i looked happy and alive, and my eyes looked brighter, so i have been getting better.
hopefully by october this year, i can be writing on here from somewhere far away, learning some new culture and enjoying my life.
i always try to be as bluntly honest as i can be on here, and i like how you think i am an interesting person
thank you
