Changing meds

[WIP]

Really nice to hear from you @NatureLover 

How are you going?

Yes, I've struggled this week. It's been really tough & today hasn't been much better.  Well this afternoon hasn't been much better. I tend to crash every afternoon, just counting down the hours till it's bed time.

This morning was ok tho. I had to go and have an EGC & blood test, so it was good to get up and have something to do (even though it was just another medical appointment, which is all I get out for these days other than the supermarket). I got to take Levi for a walk when I got back before it started raining, so that was good.

I wish I could do a few hours volunteering somewhere each week. It's give me a feeling of a little purpose and the much needed opportunity to mix with people. But with covid, anything like that is on the back burner unfortunately. I'm so very lonely.

[NatureLover]

So sorry you feel so lonely, @WIP  😞 Yes, volunteering would be ideal, once the Covid situation eases... That's good you got out for a walk before the rain, and had something to go out for this morning too. Sorry you tend to crash in the afternoon...I tend to crash in the evening, so I know what you're talking about. 

It looks like you're getting to know people on the forums? I hope that helps your loneliness a little...sending you caring thoughts...

[WIP]

I'm trying to connect with others on the forum, but sometimes feel I can't offer much support, because I'm struggling myself.

It does help with my loneliness a little when ppl write to me @NatureLover . So that's something.

Its frustrating crashing towards the end of the day, isn't it. I guess my brain starts to tire, after it's worked so hard during the day to keep my head above water. Don't know if that's how you feel.

[NatureLover]

Yes, that's how I feel too, @WIP . It's exhausting, isn't it... Do you sleep OK when you do get to bed? 

I think you're doing well - I see your name on different threads...and you don't have to offer support if you don't feel up to doing that.

[WIP]

@NatureLover  When I say I crash or dip, I become very down & anxious and usually begin crying. I have to take an anti- anxiety med to calm down. It's awful.

I only sleep at the moment with the aid of medication. I don't feel tired and my mind doesn't stop. I would toss and turn all night without the medication.  I really don't want my body to get used to it & I asked my psych about it this week, and me getting sleep at the moment is a priority. For three weeks, I only slept 2 or 3 hours a night & not consecutive hours.  It messed me up so, so much!! Getting sleep helps a lot. I envisage next psych visit he'll reduce my night time meds.

Do you sleep ok?

[NatureLover]

I'm sorry your crash is bad enough to take an anti-anxiety med...it does sound awful. 

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@WIP wrote:

For three weeks, I only slept 2 or 3 hours a night & not consecutive hours.  It messed me up so, so much!! Getting sleep helps a lot. I envisage next psych visit he'll reduce my night time meds.

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Yes, sleep is so crucial to our wellbeing, isn't it? I take a sleeping tablet every night, so I do OK, thanks. I hope the sleeping meds have kick-started you into having more sleep, @WIP ...

[WIP]

Yeah, I do crash pretty hard @NatureLover 

Uncontrollable tears, when I say I struggle, I really do struggle each day. 😢

Sleep is so crucial. Before my MH battles, particularly the last few years only, my sleep

was fine.  It's the anxiety that I've developed keeps me awake. 

I'm glad you sleep ok @NatureLover  

Do you get tired early? Are you an early riser?

[NatureLover]

Yes, I'm a morning person, I go to sleep pretty early. What about you? 

Yes, I can hear your awful struggle in your posts, @WIP  😞

[WIP]

I go to bed around 10, take my meds and usually fall asleep before 11pm. Then I wake around 7.30/8am.  I honestly wish I would sleep in longer, but it doesn't happen @NatureLover 

The days are just sooo long.....

I'm holding onto a sprinkle of hope that these new AD meds will kick in within the next couple

of weeks, and I'll feel more hopeful about life. I've currently got no motivation or self belief. I'm a shadow of who I once was. BUT, with hard work, my health should improve as long as I keep trying. 

Have you had a good week? Much planned for your weekend?

[NatureLover]

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@WIP wrote:

I go to bed around 10, take my meds and usually fall asleep before 11pm. Then I wake around 7.30/8am.  I honestly wish I would sleep in longer, but it doesn't happen @NatureLover 

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Yes, more sleep would help your long days, but at least it sounds like you are getting a night's sleep at the moment with the sleeping tablets...

I'm glad you've got a sprinkle of hope about the new meds...I am hoping too. @WIP 

I hope to have a quiet weekend, just some walking and some house cleaning. Do you have any plans, other than getting through the long days?