I can’t cope

[Captain24]

The beautiful soul has just gone to bed. @tyme. It’s kinda bittersweet talking to her. It makes me realise how much I miss her. I’m hoping she comes to visit me while I’m in. It would be good if we were closer. 

I have felt alone a lot sometimes worse sometimes I resort to SH to ease the pain

I go back to work on Monday so I would like to mow my lawns tomorrow, call into the markets for dog treats on Sunday and then cook food for work. I don’t plan on seeing my parents or anyone. As much as I’m lonely I just can’t face anyone. 

Im sure there is so much to absorb. If you’re anything like me you’ll be remembering parts for days. So was there like an entertainment show that you were all involved in? Just cause you said there was so much talent. 

[tyme]

Mow the lawns... again? @Captain24  Argh... brings back memories of all those lawn mowing moments.

Oh, so you don't have work till Monday. That's a nice 'break'. I know you'll keep busy though. 

I've written my lists for Saturday and Sunday.. got a lotta things to catch up on and do so it'll be super busy for me. 

I can hear how much you are trying. I hear it is unplesant, but I hope things ease soon. 

Talent? Boy oh boy! So much was impromptu but we had singers, dancers, news reporters, artists, spaghetti-tower makers, poets, jokers, brains..... the whole lot... Nothing was sane about it lol. I'm still laughing as I think back to the 2 days.

[Captain24]

We’ve had a bit of rain and I don’t want it to grow too long so it’s hard to do. I want it to stay quick and easy and no room for snakes! @tyme 

I’ve been trying to stay busy but I’ve been failing. I still haven’t completed the lists from the last 2 days and tomorrow is a new one. I was looking at my lists today and just couldn’t focus. I could start a task. It was like I was scattered and everything was bouncing around inside my brain. I don’t know if it’s the med decrease or if with the decrease the adhd is showing through. I did finally end up doing a bit though. 

Glad you have stuff written down. I find it overwhelming but easier at the same time. I like to cross things off!

Spagetti-tower maker sounds interesting. 

It sounds like it has lifted you so much. I can feel it through the screen. 

[tyme]

Sounds like a real battle tonight, eh @Captain24 ? I hope it gets easier for you. 

I look forward to connecting with you over the weekend when I see you next. 

I'm buggered even though these last two days have been super awesome. And yes, I totally agree that you would be able to 'feel' the vibe through the screen 🙂

Take care Cap! See you Sunday.

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'm just popping in to say hi. I was thinking of the forums this morning, so I decided to hop on to see how you were. 

I'll respond when I'm on next 🙂

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

Ive just gotten up and I'm feeling ok. Not sure I’ll get the lawns done but I want to complete the rest of my lists including tomorrow’s

Right now I feel confident in it. But if I don’t get the lists done there is still tomorrow.

I would really like to take the dogs for a walk this afternoon so I will see how I go. 

Starting the day positive! 

How are you? How are you coping with your social overload? I hope you get some of your lists done too.

[Captain24]

My mojo has waned @tyme. I did get a lot done this morning but not everything I wanted to. 

I did leave the house though. Only to get a happy meal but I still left and I had to get dressed. 

Now all I want to do is go back to bed. Which is not healthy. My psych said tiredness is not a sign of depression but the exhaustion it takes to function while depressed. She said being depressed is hard work. 

At least I tried and started off ok. Thats a win.

Im trying really hard but I seem to keep failing. What am I doing wrong? 

[Jynx]

Hiya @Captain24!! 

Yeah I am ok!! Been lots going on hehe. How are you? 😁

[Captain24]

OMG.. so good to see you @Jynx. I’ve been really worried. 

How are you? 

Giving you a big supportive hug

Im in bed. But I did have a good morning so that’s a start. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 aww back atcha! 

Yay hugs!! My fav 😊 Ooh and the support, I can feel it! Hehehe

Oh nice!! I wish I was in bed hehe sounds cosy!

Wanna tell me about the goodness in your morning?