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[Captain24]

I’ve managed to get up for work. Late though. No time for a shower, so I still haven’t managed to have one. I don’t want to go. It’s a struggle for me to leave the house. I’m sitting in the car willing myself to drive. 

[Snowie]

Good afternoon @Captain24 

Hoping you made it to work

Sending hugs 💌💌

[Captain24]

I managed to go to work but the first thing I did when I got home was hurt myself. I’m so ashamed and disappointed in myself. 

[Shaz51]

Hugs @Captain24 and sitting with you my friend ❤️ 

@Acacia 🙂

[Captain24]

Thanks @Shaz51. Hating myself right now

[Shaz51]

Understanding you not liking what you just did @Captain24 but now it is time for self care , I know that sounds very hard at the moment but have you had dinner, taken your meds , drank water today , had a nice  shower , to watch something you like watching , sure pixie would love a cuddle 

[Acacia]

Hey @Captain24, I'm really sorry to hear how you're feeling tonight. It's so hard to be sitting with that shame. 

I agree with Shaz51 that now is time for self-care. Is there anything you can do to be kind to yourself at the moment?

Or would it be helpful to talk through how you're feeling with a support service?

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat 

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling 

Samaritans: 135 247 

If in immediate danger: 000 

We're here with you but please reach out to one of the above numbers if you are needing one on one support right now ❤️

[Captain24]

Thanks for your support @Shaz51 @Acacia 

Im quite sore 

I have had a cup of soup, sat with pixie in the lounge and now I’ve just jumped in bed with Pix. 

Sorry for being such a mess 

[Acacia]

There's nothing to be sorry for @Captain24 . I'm glad you are reaching out for support 🙂

I hope you get some rest tonight and enjoy some Pixie snuggles.

[Captain24]

I came home from work and got changed. The first thing I did was do it again. I’m so useless. I’m worthless. I’m ashamed. I am nothing. To make it worse I have the urge to keep doing it.