I'm in a nest

[outlander]

@CheerBear ❤ ❤ ❤

[Mazarita]

Hi @CheerBear,

It's great to hear there are plans in place now for moving forward with your housing situation. And that you are facing it squarely despite fear. All strength to you! I'm looking forward to reading about how glad you are on the day you receive keys to your new place. 

Today I am stuck in my own particular bend of the rollercoaster. I feel a bit like 'life sucks, especially me, and I can't do anything about it'. Next thing I know, I'm asleep again! Still in my nightie at dusk. But I'm going to try to get out for a bus ride tomorrow, an afternoon trip across the border to a shopping place I haven't been for a while. I need to shift these heavy blues somehow and this little trip could be the ticket.

Hi to everyone here, love to all. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @Mazarita

[CheerBear]

Hi @Mazarita. I got goosebumps at the idea of 'keys to your new place'. Thank you. My CM asked whether I wanted to be part of the meeting that will be organised and everything in me screamed 'oh heck no'. But that's not really me so I said a shaky yes. As F&H so nicely said, I am a survivor and maybe one of my strongest survival skills is that I am a bit of fighter. It's perhaps what also gets me into a bit of trouble sometimes too 😉 I remember you mentioning a while ago that you were a bit on the fiesty side (not sure if they were the words you used, but I think it was something like this?) in earlier years, so I am thinking you might understand how important it can feel to fight for the things you believe in. I really believe in this stuff.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling stuck in that part of your rollercoaster today. Maybe sleeping is what you needed today. I didn't make it to yoga today. It's the first time my head stopped me from going since I started. Instead, just after spilling it all here, I went to bed. When I got up I had turned in to action bear and the rollercoaster took the above turn. Perhaps sleeping it off and riding it out in your nightie might just be the part of the ride that comes before your turn for the better too.

I hope you enjoy your trip out tomorrow. That sounds like a really cool thing to do 💗

Hi @outlander 💕

@Former-Member - I hope your day has been ok? ☕ ⬅ is a good one 💛

[Former-Member]

I'm glad that you were able to take a step forward today, despite everything you're going through @CheerBear
Rent is so expensive these days. I hope you find something that suits you, soon.

💟

[CheerBear]

Thanks @Former-Member  

How was your day? Did you remember to eat dinner tonight?! 🙂

[Former-Member]

Very unwell. Not eating much today .
Guess I'll shower and try and get to bed and X today off. 😮
New day tomorrow.
Hoping you'll sleep good and feel like you can conquer tomorrow @CheerBear 💪💟
It sucks big time that you have to move etc. 🌹🌼🌹🌼🌹🌼🌹

[CheerBear]

Typing on an actual keyboard! It's a bit of a novelty using a real computer to be on the forum.

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling very well today @Former-Member. I like the idea of X-ing today off! Hoping you sleep well too and feel a bit less sick in the morning. 

I am about to dive in to this email. I am going to give myself an hour and half time limit and hope I can stay in the 'today is the 4th of September' while I go through it all. I am finding words tricky and second guessing myself all the time at the moment. If I can't do it tonight, I will try again tomorrow though. 

If I don't catch you before either of us head off for the night, goodnight Bella xo

[Former-Member]

Good luck with the email @CheerBear
Try not to spend too much time on it tonight. Stressful things before bed = possibly not a good sleep.
I hope that you can switch off to it all.
Can it be done tomorrow?

I find that I need to switch off to things (as much as possible) at night.

I was super quick showering and am in bed already.

Nighty night 😴💟

[CheerBear]

I have realised it would be a very bad idea to try and do this tonight, or possibly at all so I'm not going to. I think that's probably fair enough and hope that my CM understands a request to detail all the crap that's happened with short notice, perhaps is not the best thing to do, especially given the pretty dire state my head was in today. Apparently there will be a meeting about this in the next couple of weeks, so maybe I can ask if I can have some time to write it, and see if I can get some support from my MH worker to do so. Pushing through it isn't going to work tonight and I could feel it as soon as I started going through emails to get dates etc. 

I just got the notification that you pretty much said the same thing just then @Former-Member. I think you're right, thanks. Hope you're snuggled up and cosy . Nighty night.