It is 2.30am have to stop myself from going for a walk

[Zoe7]

I'm just having another one of those 'I wish I wasn't here nights' @greenpea - but now we have donuts I might stick around lol Take you pick @greenpea @Former-Member 

[Zoe7]

Yep - same here @Former-Member re: flashbacks andnightmares - but I had extra sleepy meds tonight and they didn't help 

[Former-Member]

Sorry to hear that @Zoe7 but I am glad you'll stick around for dohnuts with myself and @greenpea. But if I have donuts I'm going to have to have coffee too☕️☕️

[greenpea]

@Zoe7@Former-Member Hey girls I will tell you both a story. When this last happened to me I left the house at 2am by foot walked to a really seedy pub about 30mins away went to the female toilet then walked out walked past an even seedier hotel (which I think is a brothel) all the way home. 

Thankfully nothing happened but after that I gave my keys to my daughter to keep at night because I just wander. I cannot help myself. It calms me down. *sigh* mad as a two bob watch at times.

[Former-Member]

That's not good about the meds. I have to go back to the gp to get more and she will be pissed at me b/c I shouldn't have run out this quick. Not liking that conversation @Zoe7

[Former-Member]

Well you are braver than me @greenpea,  I would never venture out at night by myself. Mind you I would have to walk for about 2 hours to get to a pub!

[Zoe7]

I don't drink coffee @Former-Member but I am sure I could have a virtual coffee with our virtual donuts lol I get my meds weekly so I am not 'tempted' to take too many at once again 

@greenpea you just made me giggle lol

[greenpea]

@Former-Member@Zoe7 I am sorry to hear that you are going through all of that ... life really is not fair . I have sleeping pills but dont want to use them tonight yet again. I wish I could give you one of mine, I always keep some at the ready.

[Former-Member]

Life isn't fair @greenpea, quite frankly it just sucks sometimes. Thanks for the offer but I have to go and get some more!! It's not the first time I had to go back early and get some more. 

[greenpea]

@Zoe7@Former-Member OMG!!!! Those doughnuts are fantastic!!! Doughnuts and coffee!! I agree!! yum, yum, yum!

I do mad things when I am manic. Have either of your seen the cartoon series The Angry Beavers? There is an episode on it where one of the beavers gets an entity in his head called Pond Scum. Anyways ... it sends him really bad and he drives too fast, eats cereal without milk etc. it is very funny but it always makes me think of my voice in my head who gets me into all sorts of trouble when I am manic. 

I have a love had relationship with my voice.