Riding a wave

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Zoe7 I superly duperly hear you. Change is hard!!!!!!!!! And today is one of those days when that is only one of the hard things. 

Still, tomorrow might be better. I'm super glad we don't live on Venus!

[Zoe7]

Yes it is HARD @Phoenix_Rising and today has just gotten worse. I can't say anything ust yet until I process it a bit myself. I am glad we don't live on Venus too or this day would only get worse (if that was possible!)

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Zoe7 I think I'm about to declare this day a write-off. I'm trying super super hard...but I am super super struggling. This morning's session with my turtle whisperer took a direction that I don't think either of us was anticipating going into it and now the very core of my muddle is lying wide open while I'm also trying to deal with the fact that my turtle whisperer is not going to be in my world long enough to actually help me with this most gigantic part of the muddle.

My muddle feels so gigantic right now. This particular part of the muddle was not supposed to come out like this specifically because my turtle whisperer and I have both known from the start that she can't work with me long-term. It was never intended that we would go this deep into the muddle. And then it all got massively triggered a few weeks ago by something and I've been trying to deal with the fallout ever since.

I'm going to be snuggling in my underwater cave tonight @Zoe7 if you want to join me. I'm also going to be simultaneously snuggling in @CheerBear's pocket with Squishy, Mr Seahorse and Dr Havetodo.

Today is really really really hard...but in less than four hours, the day will be done. All I have to do right now is bunker down in my cave and ride out the storm. My turtle whisperer isn't about to disappear. She is still going to be in my world for quite a while to come. We are starting the search for therapist-take-thirteen now because it is best to do it while my turtle whisperer is there. She isn't actually going anywhere tomorrow, or next week, or next month. We have time to find someone. Right now all I have to do in the whole world is snuggle in my shell in my cave and in CheerBear's pocket. Right now all I have to do is simply be.

@Former-Member will you come and sit in my cave with me? I don't know who's around tonight. To find the cave, you have to go out a thousand miles from the coast of Forum Land, take a sharp left, and then dive.

Goodnight @Zoe7 @CheerBear @Former-Member

[CheerBear]

If you look really closely at me in the cave, you will see a tiny pocket, and if you peek inside the pocket you will find the pocket crew with you @Phoenix_Rising

Goodnight phoenix_rising 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear you can be in my cave and in your nest at the same time? So I can snuggle inside my shell inside your pocket inside my cave? I think that's where I need to be right now.

[Shaz51]

I am here too @Phoenix_Rising , I will have to find a bird submarine

[Zoe7]

@Phoenix_Rising Goodnight little turtle. I think you are right in declaring this day a right-off. I am so sorry that you are in the middle of a gigantic muddle and that the direction your session took with your turtle whisperer was unexpected. I so wish she was going to be able to follow through in the long-term with you - I really do little turtle 

Thankyou for the offer of 'hiding' in the underwater cave with you but tonight I think I need to be alone. I literally just logged on to stop all notifications but wanted to reply to you first. I super like you little turtle and I really wish things were so different for you. I hope you sleep well and tomorrow has more light in it than today has.

Take care little turtle 

[CheerBear]

I can be in a nest, in the ocean, in my blanket and in your cave, with you in a shell in my pocket and us here but not, alone together, in a muddle, as a puddle, in the mud @Phoenix_Rising. With everyone here/there too, and more watching from above.

I hope you can snuggle cosily tonight, knowing you're right where you need to be right now.

[Former-Member]

Hi there @Phoenix_Rising 🙂

This is my first time responding to you, thanks for reaching out - I smiled a lot when i saw the image you posted.  Yep, I will definitely hang with you in that cave in the ocean.  The sea is one of my favourite places.  I also like to take sharp lefts ;).

Enjoy your journey and evening 🙂

[Phoenix_Rising]

If anyone wants me today, I'll be in my shell in @CheerBear's pocket, who is in her blanket in her nest in my underwater cave at the bottom of a super gigantic raging ocean.

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