Riding a wave

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member  

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Zoe7 and @CheerBear, I am snuggled in bed now and I have taken some only-in-emergencies medication (I think tonight counts as an emergency!). Thank you for being you and for being there. Tonight was really really really ultra superly duperly hard, and unmuddling the muddle of whether the rules have changed or not is going to take quite a bit more time. However, that isn't going to happen tonight. Tonight is all about Operation Stay Alive.

The evening was going so well until the storm hit. I was all set to post my post on the DBT thread just as soon as I got my yes or no (you can probably guess that that didn't happen - seems there was other stuff going on tonight ).

Oh well, this was called practicing what we preach @CheerBear. How did we do? Well the day is ending with my 100% success rate of surviving each day living with BPD still intact, so we must have done pretty well! I am so very VERY grateful that you guys were both here tonight.

I am grateful for other people being around too...I just don't FEEL it...because, well, it's a long story...

Are you ok @Former-Member? Giant storms can be super scary. It's ok though. They always pass. It's quiet and calm and safe in our underwater cave.

And on that note, I'm going to snuggle into my shell in CheerBear's pocket while she snuggles in her blanket in her nest in the inner sanctum in the underwater cave alllllllllllllllllllll the way at the bottom of the ocean. @CheerBear can Squishy, Mr Seahorse, and Dr. Havetodo snuggle in your pocket tonight too? I think I need to debrief with Dr. Havetodo.

All is well. Tonight was HARD, but tomorrow will be here in just over 90 minutes. I am so very glad we don't live on Venus!

Super big thank you for watching over the ocean tonight @Former-Member. I'm guessing it may not have been the most peaceful night for you.

Good night my awesome not-friend, my super favourite aquaintance in Forum Land and my relatively new you-interest-me-a-lot aquaintance.

Goodnight also to @Shaz51 who I know is flying around and to @Faith-and-Hope who I still super hope to be like one day when I grow up.

Tonight SUPER sucked...but we can try again tomorrow.

[Zoe7]

Yes tonight did super suck for you but the 100% survival rate is still intact @Phoenix_Rising 

Goodnight little turtle - and a super big WELL DONE for riding the waves tonight (and just to be a real pesky little flutterby - now would be the time to duck...............)

[Faith-and-Hope]

Attaturtle @Phoenix_Rising ...... you have flipped up and over another storm ...... 🌷🐢

[Former-Member]

Sweet dreams my favourite turtle in the sea. May you dream of riding the current and wake up with a sense of calm.

[Phoenix_Rising]

I feel super super super scared. I feel utterly alone. I feel confused and abandoned. Nothing makes sense. My whole history is repeating before my eyes. I miss Fred. I wish with all my heart I could just go back to him. I am not safe anywhere now except snuggled in CheerBear's pocket. I don't understand why my attempts to "reach out for support" went so amazingly wrong tonight. I followed all the rules. I don't understand what went wrong. I miss Cherrybomb so so SO much. Forum Land simply isn't as safe since she left. 😔😔😔

[Former-Member]

I don't know you at all @phoneix_rising but I can assure you your old friends like CherryBomb would be missing your nighty conversation.

Some times in life you can do everything right in reaching out and play every rule by the book and sadly not get the help needed which hurts so much. Especially when your in a fragile state. It sucks!!!!!

But I got to say from the conversation you have had tonight a lot of people your friends from forum land have heard your cries and have come to aid to help as much as they can. From your post you seem to like structure and the security from your old friends as they know you and how to communicate to you when in needed. But I hope tonight the people who have helped have had made you feel at least loved, cared for and wanted in this hard time. Because you are. You are loved and wanted.

Please be safe tonight little turtle. The world and sea loves you and even though the waves are crashing you will be safe. The sun is not far away.

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member are one of you please able to check on our favourite turtle please.

[Faith-and-Hope]

☔️🐢☔️ @Phoenix_Rising ......

[mufasa]

Dear Cats Meow,

It is the moderator. You were concerned about a colleague on the form. Could you please email with more details in particular the  persons psydenum.

Regards

Artaud