Riding a wave

[Zoe7]

@Phoenix_Rising  ...and...

@OhanaSystem  ...

[BlueBay]

Hi @Phoenix_Rising

You have an AMAZING therapist.  So happy for you.  It makes so much sense what you explained.  This is so me.

BB xxoo

[frog]

Hi @Phoenix_Rising I am not feeling at all ignored! I am just happy to see you're about. It's so good when you find a good therapist, life changing even. TTT sounds like a gem. Hope yoga was good for body and soul. Have a good night.

[OhanaSystem]

I love that TTT is so validating and helpful for you! She sounds very smart and very cool. And total props to her for seeing past CBT!!

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member are you watching the ocean this evening? Did you see my Narwhal over on the crafty thread. I am super proud of him...even if @greenpea did mistake him for a platypus. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member I see you are wandering around Forum Land tonight. I feel super happy when I see you around but I get super sad too because we can't talk talk ever again. The big sad feelings make my tummy super gigantically hurt.  

[Former-Member]

Hey there @Phoenix_Rising 🙂

Yes I am wandering around tonight 🙂 I'll have to pop over and check out your crafting, I'll do so shortly.

I love the sound of you getting back into yoga, I know how much you have enjoyed this beofre. Happy Yoga Monday 🙂

I hear you, just a different type of talking, hope that tummy of yours is ok.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member my tummy is still super hurting. I am going to go and snuggle under my weighted blanket with turtle. Would you like to read a story with me tonight? How about this one:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvuNjPLP9J0

Oooh @OhanaSystem, I just realised that you might super like this story because it is all about a giraffe! My favourite line in it is: sometimes when you are different you just need a different song.

Goodnight Forum Land. 

[Former-Member]

That sounds like a great idea @Phoenix_Rising, I'll be listening along with you. Say hi to turlte for me.

Hope you sleep well. Good night 🙂

[Phoenix_Rising]

I feel so sad. I made one last attempt to work through the wrongness of the wrong, but to no avail. I will never ever ever understand why people can't simply talk. Why can't people just talk???

It is what it is. I will now do what I feel I need to in order to close this chapter. I will deal with the situation that is, rather than the situation that I so very very badly wish was. I will do what I feel I need to do, and then, when it is done, I will be able to leave this situation in the past, where it will become just another story that I tell in years to come. I feel so very very very sad. 

I do not matter,

I'm only one person,

Destroy me completely,

Then throw me away.