That's so fair @Fun totally understand if verbally speaking is difficult - those webchat options might be worth giving a go first then! also if you do want to give a calling service a go at some point, writing down what you want to say ahead of time might be helpful? i used to write down dot points of what i wanted to speak about before phone calls so if i ever blanked out, i can just read what i've written word for word.
maybe lets also look at some coping tools for when those dark thoughts get heavy?
like i mentioned, journaling is a big one! writing down and realising that those thoughts are not facts/truths, their just intrusive words that pop up - this can help detach from those thoughts.
There's also this self-help workbook, haven't tried it myself but maybe it might be useful:
Have you found grounding techniques or breathing techniques useful in calming dark thoughts?
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