Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

It's okay we are wanting to think of you it isn't a waste of anyone's time at all, I will be around this week for chat if you need okay

[Owlunar]

Such "wonderings" would never be a waste of time @Zoe7

You are a valued and much loved person here and you give a lot of yourself - and one can never give enough to someone so respected and cared about as you are

You are always ready to help someone else when you are having a hard time - the butterly with the secret pass to go into any appointment or exam with another person - that is a truely fine gift of yourself

Btw - I travel alone and I know it can be harder - and easier - if I went with other people I would have to fit in around the itinerary - hard work - I prefer my own plans - and I know the insides of motel/hotel rooms well enough - the idea is to take your favourite inner art with you when you go - and confront your demons

And for you and sometimes for me those demons will be at home too - but being prepared for our inner journey to gang up on us is a good idea - it is a life-skill

I truly do admire you for going to Sydney alone

Lots of hugs Zoe

Dec

[Phoenix_Rising]

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@Zoe7 wrote:

@Former-Member No need to think of me - just letting everyone know I am still alive so no-one actually wastes any time wondering.

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I'm glad you are still alive @Zoe7.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Zoe7 ..... my beautiful butterfly friend .....

Sending you love, and hugs, and courage, and blessing .... and all the best wishes I have in my heart for you ...,

I know you are feeling really down, and I wish I could fix that ...... but you don't know the joy it brings me when your butterfly pops up on my screen, especially when you have tagged me to let me know you are thinking of me .....

I am painting every day now and getting this comp piece done .... and your favourite colours are in it sweetheart ......

💚💜🌷💐💕💚💜🌷💐💕💚

[utopia]

My beautiful butterfly @Zoe7. Sending you my love. And thoughts for an easier, quiet afternoon for you. Lots of hugs. ♥♥

[Zoe7]

...always in my heart @Faith-and-Hope

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Li6vpAMmfw0

[Faith-and-Hope]

🤗💚🌷💕 @Zoe7 ......

[Shaz51]

My beautiful Sister  @Zoe7 

[Zoe7]

The darkness has closed in so tight around me that I can barely breathe. Everything hurts yet I am numb. I close my eyes to block out the world yet I still see the worst that humanity can throw at us. I do not want to keep fighting this pain. Every single part of me is saying ENOUGH! Every single part of me wants it to end! Nothing matters anymore. I want to disappear and finally feel some peace. I am losing the battle and I don't have the strength to keep pushing back against it. Hope is nearly lost and the will to go on decreases with every passing minute. I am broken, lost and nearly defeated. The darkness which surrounds me and is within me is winning!

[Former-Member]

Hiya @Zoe7. Please know I've read your message and I know what is going through your mind right now. I know you'll be justifying it all. I know how much you're hurting but I can't stand by as someone who cares for you and give in with you either so I am fighting for you when you can't. I know this won't 'feel' anything for you but it is the only way I can fight for you without physically sitting next to you.  I'm thinking of you pS 💜🤗💐all my love and hope

im angry at your pain too. I hope your pain finds a way to rack off!!