Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

👋💚🦋💐💕 ..... @Zoe7 @Former-Member ..... anyone else around ......

[Zoe7]

You are back with us @Faith-and-Hope - yea 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Feelin’ the love @Zoe7 🤗

[Zoe7]

yeah you better be @Faith-and-Hope lol - missing you today even though it was only for a short time 

[Former-Member]

Proud of yoy @Zoe7, that's how i did d ot for soooo long. I contracted myself to "sleep on it! " (alcohol free) and its amazing how a sleep can change things, even just a little, enough to try again. Sometimes, even now i have waves of distress (emotional pain) with intrusive memories that compel me to die, especiallt my girls last breath. Something tella me i should have died with her & can correct that. I tell myself it will pass, and it does, but its exhausting so i hope youre beimg grntle with you tonight. ?
Oh, betta go check dad, hes probably lookin dor dinna

[Zoe7]

Those memories are so hard to get out of your mind @Former-Member but yes they do pass - just sometimes feels in the moment like you don't care and want to end the pain - I get that 

I have had a pretty rough afternoon and all I wanted to do was sleep - but knew if I did then tonight would be worse for me. I am struggling tonight but doing everything I can to stay safe and get through it - that is all I can do!

[Snowie]

@Zoe7 

[Zoe7]

How are you travelling tonight @Snowie - I have taken up my usual perch - sitting on Neptune - days/nights like these suck!!!!!!!

[Snowie]

@Zoe7yeah going okish, anxiety up but dealing with it. Sounds like you have had a rough afternoon 

[Zoe7]

Okish is a win @Snowie. I have already taken meds - can't cope with today anymore - just want to sleep. Been blindsided with some things today and need it to be over  I really want them to kick in quickly but then sleep all throught he night - suppose that is too much to ask though! I am very tired so hopefully that will help me actually get to sleep quickly.