Moving forward in any way is a win @Faith-and-Hope (look at me seeing the positive 
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I don't feel exctly like I am moving forward myself but I don't feel as 'stuck' as I have done either - and that has to be seen as a positive!
I am keeping my eye closely on Toby (nothing unusual there I know lol) - he is due for his annual check-up soon so if his foot doesn't look any better I will book him in early. The vet will hold over the fee until I can pay it - so I am lucky there - they have done it for me before and know my circumstances - so nice to have such a great vet who knows me and Toby quite well 
@Faith-and-Hope I am sleeping more and the flashbacks and nightmares have significantly reduced - that makes soooo much difference. I still have long periods of feeling very low but more times when I can feel that lifted slightly - and those are the times I am trying to hold onto
I know there is no DBT this week and that is a relief for me - if I have the same anxiety around it next week then I am going to have to seriously consider if it is worth continuing - I know I may not see/feel the benefits for some time but the days before and then a couple of days after are extremely hard - a lot harder than I let on... have seriously considered my 'options' a couple of times and that is not a good place for me to be!
@utopia The 'waves' of pain can last for a couple of hours sometimes for me - and yes it is debilitating (when I don't faint myself!). I have spent many times on the floor, unable to move, from the pain. I have medication now that does help reduce the symptoms but occasionally it is so intense that the meds don't help. I am very careful with what I eat and know what makes it worse but that took a lot of trial and error for some years.
