Am Not Coping

[BlueBay]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@utopia@soul@Shaz51

[Zoe7]

Hi Hon 

I mowed the lawn and have been to the chemist for my usual pickup. Just about to do the washing up and then sort out my meds for the week. Toby supervised the mowing lol

I have a couple of rose images to post later @Faith-and-Hope 🌹

I hope you get the bits and pieces you need and have a good walk home.

Your niece is already asking for her dinner  😺 but she will have to wait. Toby just lays down and looks at her - methinks he is wondering what all the noise is about lol

Going to try to do the ironing tonight and that will get the dining room table cleare off a little.

Now for the really important thing - I did some more painting 😀 

[Zoe7]

Hi @BlueBay How has your day been Hon?

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope 

[BlueBay]

Hi @Zoe7

feeling really flat today.  work was very very quiet, boring!!

you had a busy day?

[Sans911]

Yay for painting @Zoe7 🦋👍🎨

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @BlueBay .... 🖐💗

Waiting for the images @Zoe7 .....

We are supposed to be having a family art night tonight - our first ever ..... don't know how is going to go after the carry-on yesterday, but we are going to have to just park that up and make it work okay I guess.  It's mr.f&h who will be out of his comfort zone entirely, so it's a big thing for him to invest in, but I am guessing he is sorry in hindsight about what happened yesterday, and its good that he is still stepping up to tonight.  This is our own form of family therapy, and its clear we are all still trying, as imperfect as it all is ..... and the kids are trying to share art with him.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Sans911 .... 🖐💗

[Zoe7]

Quiet days at work can be very boring @BlueBay The time seems to go so much slower.  I've finished the washing up too BB so another job done today. I didn't get to the weeding I wanted to do but hoping can do that tomorrow after the pool. Just settling in now for a little while before I get dinner organised.

@Sans911 I might get to do a little more painitng tonight - depends on if I get the rest of the housework done I want to do. Need a rest first - have done a fir bit today already.

@Faith-and-Hope will get some more photos for you tomorrow - the Jasmine is looking beautiful now and smells lovely. I hope the art night goes well for you all. It does show that Mr. F&H is trying but it in no way excuses his behaviour towards you yesterday - but you are all making of it what you have to to get by Hon I get that ...just don't like what it does to you 

[Faith-and-Hope]

These events (yesterday) are far less frequent than they used to be @Zoe7.  Mr. is walking on eggshells around us as much as we are around him to some extent, having been given the behavioural boundaries that he was by health professionals, and through what he viewed as personal criticisms when I spoke up to doctors and therapists about his behaviour .... bearing in mind that he has undergone a personality change that he can't identify in himself, and his family background supports abusive behaviour as something of a norm ..... so speaking out about these things has affected him, even if it is in the form of him now feeling victimised and misunderstood.  It's only a diagnosis and therapy that willl give him a broader perspective of all of that .... and of course all we can do is wait.

It means that he is feeling confused and wounded too.  Hard on all of us, but what mi isn't ?  It's not a one-way street.

Hopefully tonight will produce more positive interactiion and memories to help sustain us in our holding pattern.