Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Pepsimax It has been a very long day - GP then blood tests, straight to DBT next. I talked to the psychologist today who is one of the facilitators and told her how much I was struggling with it all. She told me that is ok and to give it as much time as I need - with no pressure.The pdoc who is co-facilitationg tried to push me but the psych stopped her as she could see how uncomfortable I was - so although that didn't put me totally at ease it did help reduce my anxiety a little.

I had lunch with my mum - it went okay - it was a good thing we only having a very small time frame and  then off to my pdoc appointment - which was hard. She seems to think I am doing well with DBT - because I have stayed and are still doing it! We discussed what we did earlier in DBT and how I have been over the last week. We also talked a little about megoing to work last week and how I coped with that. Then it was the usual 'safety' talk and how I am going with that - I was honest with her 

I am so tired - fell asleep as soon as I got home - but think I will still be able to sleep tonight. I have already had my meds and can barely keep my eyes open - just need to hang on a little longer so I am not up in the middle of the night - after the day I have had that would not be the safest thing to happen for me 

I hope everyone passing through here has had an okish day - at least had some glimpses of happiness and hope 

[Snowie]

@Zoe7thankyou hun for letting us know how you went. 

Today has been a long day for you, and you have acheived so much in a short amount of time. I am glad the psych was there to stop the pdoc from pushing too much. Seems like she listened to you.

Hopefully you can sleep well tonight.

You should be proud of yourself @Zoe7, you have done so well today 

[Zoe7]

Thanks Hon - I expected it to be a difficult and tiring day @Snowie but I am totally exhausted mentally and physically. I could not stay awake when I got home - I was that tired! I could feel my eyes closing when I was driving home. I even fed the babies early  I am now waiting for the meds to kick in and will try to sleep in the bed tonight (might not be the best decision but I am so tired that I am hoping it will turn out ok)

How was your day at dancing?

[Snowie]

@Zoe7well I am glad you got home in one piece  Hopefully the meds lick in soon. Does Toby sleep with you when you are in bed too?

Dancing was long!!! Took me 2 hrs to get home this afternoon from it. But it is over for now. D enjoyed it so guess that was the main thing 

[Zoe7]

Toby starts on the bed but often gets off during the night and sleeps on his bed on the floor @Snowie. He can't jumponto the bed but Cat sometimes comes in to sleep when he is off. She will be in more when it is colder - for now she happy near the heater or in her room 

Wow - 2 hours to get home is a long time but glad your D enjoyed it and it is finished now 

Any plans for tomorrow?

[Snowie]

haha @Zoe7, they sound more like kids than animals!! But then again they probably are 

Tomorrow is blood tests and GP if I can get into her. Have to go to uniform shop too for kids so hoping I can do that too.

What are your plans?

[Zoe7]

They are a bit like kids to me @Snowie 

I have no plans for tomorrow - just get through the day. I'm feeling really shaky and quite sick tonight so that is why I want to sleep very soon - don't want to get to that point where I am so tired I can't sleep - that is when the flashbacks start and I can't control them - so fingers crossed sleep won't be too far away!

I hope you can get into your GP and get to the uniform shop 

My GP is away next week and my pdoc for 2 weeks - so it will be DBT with no support next week - not sure how I am going to deal with that yet 

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Zoe7...... glad to hear you managed the day .... good for you ❣️

Glad also to see you concentrating on this day and how to best manage the evening.

Hugs ... 🦋💕

Hi @Snowie .....👋

Two hours in traffic sucks .....

[Snowie]

@Zoe7fingers and toes crossed you sleep tonight. 

Can you see the psych after DBT next week, so you have someone to talk to afterwards? Remember we are always here for you and can sit on Neptune next week with you 

[Snowie]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope, hope you have had a good day and recovering after your busy week.