Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

Moving forward in any way is a win @Faith-and-Hope (look at me seeing the positive )

I don't feel exctly like I am moving forward myself but I don't feel as 'stuck' as I have done either - and that has to be seen as a positive!

I am keeping my eye closely on Toby (nothing unusual there I know lol) - he is due for his annual check-up soon so if his foot doesn't look any better I will book him in early. The vet will hold over the fee until I can pay it - so I am lucky there - they have done it for me before and know my circumstances - so nice to have such a great vet who knows me and Toby quite well 

[Faith-and-Hope]

That is a wonderful relationship with your vet @Zoe7 ...... and I am hearing a difference in you, which I am soooo happy about ......

I know it’s still early days, but I am hopeful the tide is turning for you Hon.

❤️

[utopia]

Glad that Toby seems a lot better today @Zoe7. I have had IBS since my teenage years. I often pass out with the pain. Many times my son or my mum will need to be with me. I don't do pain well. And when it lasts over 20 minutes - stops for half an hour - then starts again - it's debilitating.
Glad to hear things are slowly moving in the right direction @Faith-and-Hope even if a little wobbly.

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope I am sleeping more and the flashbacks and nightmares have significantly reduced - that makes soooo much difference. I still have long periods of feeling very low but more times when I can feel that lifted slightly - and those are the times I am trying to hold onto 

I know there is no DBT this week and that is a relief for me - if I have the same anxiety around it next week then I am going to have to seriously consider if it is worth continuing - I know I may not see/feel the benefits for some time but the days before and then a couple of days after are extremely hard - a lot harder than I let on... have seriously considered my 'options' a couple of times and that is not a good place for me to be!

@utopia The 'waves' of pain can last for a couple of hours sometimes for me - and yes it is debilitating (when I don't faint myself!). I have spent many times on the floor, unable to move, from the pain. I have medication now that does help reduce the symptoms but occasionally it is so intense that the meds don't help. I am very careful with what I eat and know what makes it worse but that took a lot of trial and error for some years.

[Zoe7]

We can be DBT buddies @Snowie lol

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️👍 ..... @Zoe7 @Snowie 

[Snowie]

@Zoe7yes we can! A bit nervous but think it will help me 

[Zoe7]

I find it really hard @Snowie - I talked to my GP about it yesterday and explained how anxious it makes me. It is not understanding it - that is easy - it is being amongst so many people. I don't like talking and the pressure to share even small things is too much for me - I have already talked to the psychologist and pdoc briefly about how hard I am finding it but I don't think they 'get it' - so may need to have that conversation again. If I can't 'settle' a bit more then I am going to continue to have several days of stress around DBT and that is really not helping me.

I know DBT is something you have wanted to do so I hope your experience is a good one for you. I never thought about it until my pdoc suggested it and then I thought I would have much longer to get used to the idea (was told there was at least a 10 week waiting list) but my pdoc pushed for me to take the next available place and apparently she has some influence over who gets in!!! I did not feel ready to do it but here I am and I am trying to make it work... it is just really hard for me!

[greenpea]

@Zoe7@Snowie Hi Zoe7 Hi Snowie. Loving my poppy dress and flower Zoe7 would I be stretching the friendship for another flower for thursday like a daisy maybe .... if you are up for it no pressure 🙂

[Zoe7]

I can do a daisy for you @greenpea - is it a special occasion?