Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

you're not alone, im here and hearing and knowing your pain 

[Zoe7]

Sweet dreams little turtle @Phoenix_Rising 

[Zoe7]

I want it to end @Former-Member I'm drowning in my own misery.

[Former-Member]

I'm probably one of the last people you hope to hear from @Zoe7 but I found you and do care. There might be a @Former-Member around too, you can email them. It might be possible you suffer SAD (season affective disorders / winter blues), I feel the depression get worse ev ry May, not much we can do about it accept up the self care (walks, soup, sunshine, hot drinks, vegetables, reaching out, positive exposure...) but acceptance that it will pass and keep warm. Sometimes its best not to over think, just breathe & chill out. Walking with you Zoe. Go gentle on yourself. Good time for achot coco ☕ ♥💜♥

[Former-Member]

We have to keep fighting @Zoe7 - though the reasons are elluding me right now. I know you have a sister who would be devastated. She would feel so much pain and be so upset to have not been able to help you, especially given her job. You deserve to be happy and have a better life thn this and it might be on its way. There will be opportunities and good times beyond this (i am telling myself as well). you just need to get through one minute at a time. am glad you are here.

[Eden1919]

@Zoe7 honestly someone elses problems might be a good distraction from my own issues tonight not to say anyones problems are eaiser than mine or anything like that just that maybe focusing on someone else will bring me out of my own head a bit if any of that makes sense. but you dont have to talk to me if you would prefer to talk to someone else. I am ok with whatever just let me know 

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member I've been 'talking' to NikNik over the last few hours. Staying connected here is one of the things on my safety plan that is achievable at the moment. It's not SAD @Former-Member it's the PTSD that is destroying me atm.

[Former-Member]

Yes, the ptsd/trauma is the thing that crushes my soul as well. it sucks the life out, the will and the determination. But you have beaten it every day successfully so far. And i do believe you can coninue to beat it. hugs

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member I am reaching the point where 'they' win because I can't get past it. 'They' have taken away any self-belief I may have had and now are taking away my will. Anyone who says that I am letting this happen does not even remotely get how painful it is to relive the trauma(s) over and over without any relief - and to know that any 'therapy' that may help is not possible while I am so sick - I am in a no-win situation.

@Eden1919 please stick around if you are up to it

[Eden1919]

@Zoe7 I will stick around   what do you think could help we could make a list? anything helpful even if it is small. or you can keep writing how you are feeling if that helps.