Am Not Coping

[Eden1919]

@Zoe7 I can understand that but as @Faith-and-Hope said I am sure toby would miss you. it would not be the same for him without you. Also I know it is hard feeling like you have nothing to stick around for I know that feeling too well it is a very destruuctive feeling. we have to push past it though together we can. we must. one day one hour one minute at a time. 

[Zoe7]

...and on my matle piece ... @Faith-and-Hope

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Zoe7 .... 💙💕🦋

[Zoe7]

@Eden1919 are you copying my posts to you and re-posting them here lol - how the tide has turned hey! Thankyou 

[Eden1919]

haha @Zoe7 it does seem that way lol. i think though sometimes there isnt much else to say well not much else that is helpful anyway sometimes people just want to be heard and not have people try to fix things all the time. other times maybe there is more to say but I get the feeling you would rather just be listend to and sat with through the storm. if i am worng feel free to correct me though. 

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trEwDejTKRY&list=RDQML9KzCqPVZx4&index=30

[Zoe7]

Yes @Eden1919 soemtimes we just need to talk and know someone is actually listening. It does generally ease the pain slightly rather than keeping it all inside all the time. I do feel like I am sometimes going over and over the same things but the reality is that the hurt and the pain doesn't change, the trauma doesn't change, the feelings don't change - so even if it is the same thing over and over - that is what I need because that is what continues to destroy little parts of me each day.

[Eden1919]

i am here listening @Zoe7 

[Faith-and-Hope]

I'm enjoying the hot chocolate .... don't know about you ..... 😏

I went and made one.  

I was sitting outside painting, but it was cold here tonight .... well .... cold for us ...and now I'm cold.  Changed into jammies.  Still wearing linseed and turps cologne .... lol .... not that that matters particularly ....and waiting to warm back up ....

I also get hungry at around this time, so I might be munching on almonds in a bit ....

Just thought I might captivate you with some trivia .... 😆

[Zoe7]

Hahaha @Faith-and-Hope maybe you should jump into that big cup of hot chocolate to warm up lol

I've be in my jammies all day so I don't need to change 

I do need to stop crying though or I will have to change!!!