My Hospital Stay

[Shaz51]

Shite day indeed @utopia , sending you all my love my friend

[utopia]

Those flowers smell like ...... nothing.

They are perfect @Zoe7. Thanks @Shaz51.
Yes a shite day but feeling calmer.
But I think the next day or two may be more of this type of negative talk. Especially with the change in meds and my frustration with my psychiatrist.
Love to all.

[outlander]

im not in a good headspace atm @utopia but hugs to you

[utopia]

@outlander. All the pictures are beautiful. But can you guess my favorite?
My brother and sister Cockies.

[outlander]

I knew you would like them @utopia
They are quite cute. I hope your doing abit better 💕

[utopia]

Part 2
Day 7 - evening
Did 2 groups. Smoked and chatted with other patients. Joined in a talk on travel and our experiences.
Later my mum rang. I told her about my day. Had to explain what a roller coaster of emotions of emotions meant. Twice! !!
Told her about Psychiatrist chat and her chat eith him. Told her he's now suggesting ECT & that it's been hard then having to rediscuss it all with the nurses again. And then said "so that was my shite day. End of whinge. So how are you and everything going? ".
Straight away she says - well if they aren't helping you - then just come home. What the!!!! Did she really just say that?
So I said I can't talk to you now. Maybe I'll talk to you in a few days & I hung up on her.
Back to the nurses station for more prn calmers. Then i asked to debrief eith the nurse. Where I spewed out all my anger at my mum. It was her conversation that has led to my psychiatrist now suggesting ECT. And then she tells me ti come home. What - to die?
Just came into my room to type this and wsit for my sleeper med.
All of a sudden I feel really nauseas. Hope it's not a repeat of the other night.
Good night everyone. Tomorrow is a new day.HHopefully without well meaning but hurtful mothers.

[Former-Member]

Sleep tight and I hope your day is better tomorrow. I am quite familiar with well meaning but hurtful mothers, having one of my own! 💐

[Owlunar]

Aw - you are having a rough time @utopia

I think I had a lot of that without the smokes - I do not like a lot of sprayed stuff - though I use hairspray for my fine and uncontrollable hair - but I could live with the industrial stuff and perfume stuff

And rehashing your thoughts and crying - this is hard work

I hope things get easier - it takes time I guess and you have gone off your medication for now I think - I am not sure how long between different medications - not easy

Still thinking of you - I wish I could be more helpful - my own dark days tell me that you live in between the good parts and the yukky parts and the peaceful moments and the shadows

I care

Dec

[oceangirl]

Hi @utopia thinking of you. me personally I wouldn't do the ECT treatment- no way. But the choice is yours. I would try the TMS you may get a longer admission with this too. Without the risks!

@Former-Member my specialist mention TMS a little while back too- I was not keen at the time. Where did you find information about TMS? I have read somewhere that TMS is in the public system too but not many public hospitals have this treatment available- the difference in the public system you are not admitted into hospital.

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

I am glad you got a laugh out of the pics in my post - that was hours ago now - I have been so busy today

I got another "thinking" clip art

Oh yeah - it's a bit of a puzzle - all this decision making - I have spent a lot of money this week - I haven't spent much lately so I could do this - but looking at this thinking-clip-art I do put things off because I don't want to spend money - but I do love it when I get something I need

I hope you have a peaceful night

Dec