My Hospital Stay

[Sahara]

Wow, @utopia,

ECT does sound like a big step. Maybe it's best to give the new anti-depressant a try first? You will have to talk it over with your psychiatrist... try not to be too hard on him... it does sound like he wants to help you. Although, it's always good to get a second opinion, too. 

You sound kind of angry- which I think is a good thing- it's much better to by angry than to be numb. You are a little angry at your Mum and also at the nurses and the psychiatrist. I can understand anger as I have had a lot of it in my life. 

Lets hope that today is a better day for you and that some clarity comes your way. 

Hugs. xxx

[utopia]

@Owlunar. I think most of the pieces of my puzzle are missing. Maybe I really only have one piece.

[utopia]

@Sahara. yes I have anger. It's my main emotion at the moment. And it's strength is growing stronger and stronger. . I understand logically that any feelings - especially when previously feelings have been numbed.
But it does feel like I'm turning into a Witch with a B. And me - the deep down real me - is kind and empathetic. This is just the opposite of ME.

[Owlunar]

Oh gee @utopia

That does not sound good

Well - I am having trouble setting up my wi-fi printer - so I totally get that we need the instructions

At least I can tell you where you need to get to

Lots of hugs

Dec

[Sahara]

@utopia,

 all of us are capable of anger, just as we are all capable of sadness, joy, grief and the full gamut of human emotions. It does not mean you are turning into a b*tch.... it just means that you are human.

Anger is a necessary emotion, because it lets us know when our boundaries have been transgressed. Without anger, we would really be flailing around in utter confusion. Anger serves to propel us into action! It forces to ask "what now?" rather than to stay stuck. 

I see anger as a positive thing. It can get such negative stigma in our society, especially when it is a woman who is angry. I think women's anger is so misunderstood. 

[MissG]

@utopiaI haven't been in for a few days and wanted to see how you're going. I've been thinking of you. I can't really add much to what @Sahara said but I do agree that anger can be positive even though it doesn't feel like it at the time and also it's part of being human. Let's face it sometimes stuff happens and anger is a perfectly reasonable response. I feel like a b**h when I feel angry sometimes but when I really look at the situation or feeling I haved to give myself a break. Being all 'sweetness and lollipops' is a myth but we expect alot of ourselves sometimes.

[utopia]

@Sahara @MissG
I think the anger is due to not being heard by my psychiatrist. Coz today - I really wanted to hurt him.
On a better note, the rest of the day has been ok

[Former-Member]

@utopia have you had the chance to speak with or organise to meet with the head psychiatrist? Thinking of you xx

[utopia]

I can't talk to the head Po dychiatrist. But I spoke to the head nurse. And tomorrow or Monday I will find out the correct procedure for accessing a second opinion. @Former-Member. I'm ok with that. And I don't have to see my psychiatrist tomorrow. The nurses will tell him I'm on a no 'doctor' day.

[outlander]

hugs @utopia