Taking the plunge

[Former-Member]

Hi @Maggie

The birds didn't sound so chirpy to me this morning - I was exhausted bah humbug lol. It's horrible not being able to sleep, just lying there wide aside till about 6:00am. I did manage to nod off for a few hours but it has ruined my plans for the day. My sleep issues are really starting to get up my nose - it is playing havoc with my life. Sorry for the whinge.

It may have been the caffeine I consumed yesterday - I am hoping so. I have to work hard on getting a better sleep routine - my tablets have lost their effectiveness so I will just have to wear myself out today to force sleep. What are your plans for the day?

I may go for a walk on the beach, cross stitch and do some physical exercise to help sleep along. A challenge for me presently. Tomorrow I am off to bingo with my daughter. We had a lovely Christmas together and when we went back to her place she opened up and talked to me about some of the pain and horrible things she went through. I real first for her and a step forward. She rested her head on my shoulder. Her housemate opened up to me too!!! Have relaxing day everyone. @Former-Member - I hope you feeling a bit more relieved and better today. Thinking of you x

[Maggie]

@Faith-and-Hope I had to go back to bed this morning, very rare for me. I've run myself ragged putting in three LARGE pavers!!!!!! Rain forcast for Thursday and I didn't want mud everywhere.

Sounds like it's been challenging for you!!!!!! Hoping the worst is over. Be good to you if possible. Sending a warm hug.

[Maggie]

@Former-Member I know the lying awake nights and exhausted days. I do hope you get into a sleeping pattern, not something I've achieved I'm afraid. A walk along the beach sounds nice, is it cooler up your way? Cross stitch will be good, are you starting your new mermaid??? I might pick mine up and see how I go.

It must be such a relief with D opening up to you now, so different from not so long ago. D has come such a long way, you must be proud of her. Good to read your day went well!!

Like I said to @Faith-and-Hope I've over done the pavers, but.......they are in, and it can rain all it likes. I couldn't do another thing if I wanted to right now, so sitting watching Dr Phil....that's seriously bad for me!!!!

The weather is perfect 22, so no complaints there.

The song I put up for you to listen to is by a group of nuns, Oprahs nuns, they have a rosary song out if you are interested. They also play football!!!!!! I L I K E that.

Take care. Thinking of you.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @Maggie .....

It’s been the lowest key Christmas I can remember for a while, but there is a sadness to it too, because our life is about to change in a way that wasn’t of my choice, but in the interests of supporting our children to swim to the edges of our riptide, I have to comply with it ...... and I am refusing to engage fully with the heart-sore state that can invike ..... I am parking up my feelings, and will wallow in them incrementally, hopefully supported by moments of joy as we move down this (for me) unwanted path.

Thank you for your concern ...... it is a warmth amidst the cold reality.

[Maggie]

@Faith-and-Hope Humm, sounds awful. Sending warm thoughts dear lady, you have gone through far too much already. Lost for words, but feeling with you.💕💜💛

[Former-Member]

Ahhh @Faith-and-Hope - sitting by you through the storm. You are not alone - love surrounds you and will see you through to warmer waters. As will your resilience and faith. Moment to moment for now. Sending a warm hug  🤗🌹xx

@Maggie - so glad the pavers are in - and that you are in one piece. You are a little trooper - you should feel proud of your accomplishments. Well done. Any plans for tomorrow? I am off to bingo with my daughter. Wish me luck 😊❤️x

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @Maggie and @Former-Member ..... 💕

Well done on the pavers @Maggie .... ✔️

[Maggie]

@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope Not so much well done with the pavers, I've been flat on my bed since mid day yesterday. I have no off switch in things like these until I can no longer move. But..they are done and so am I, but thanks for the well done wishes.

All the best with bingo today @Former-Member i hope there's a win in the air.

@Faith-and-Hope You can do this, as @Former-Member said, your faith will bring you through, moment by moment.

Sending warm thoughts to you both.🌷🌺🎶

[Faith-and-Hope]

I hear you with the pavers @Maggie. With a workaholic husband, there were many years where, if there was something to be done, it had to be me doing it.  We had a fully paved back yard with three babies at one stage, so along with everything else it took to manage, it was me out there ripping up the pavers, planting in lawn, and hand watering it all across the summer months.  I look back now and wonder how I did it ..... but as hard as things were, I wasn’t as crest-fallen as I am now.  I think that was the real difference.

There are things I have to put together in my own mind before I can express them in our therapy sessions, and chatting here is helping me to do that.  I can see that losing our sense of “us”is what took away all my momentum to keep taking on the chaos that has seemed to follow us around.  Now I am beginning to understand that the personality disorder being discussed over some of our family members is one that creates chaos ..... who knew ?

[Former-Member]

Dear @Maggie - well done with the pavers. Sounds like you are a bit like me in that regard as well. If I start something I will move heaven and earth to finish it. Which often results in overdoing things. After the flat on your back rest in bed yesterday, I hope you are up and about again today and feeling somewhat recovered? I'd be surprised if your little Maggie-May allowed you to rest for very long.

Oh @Maggie, we had so much rain yesterday - it was glorious. Light showers most of the morning, then some heavy rain and thunderstorms in the afternoon. Maggie - we have mud! We had close to 4 inches of rain throughout the day. It was much needed because it had become very dry. So the ground just seemed to absorb the lot. The sun is shining this morning and everything smells and looks fresh. The birds are singing merrily, my budgies chirping away in their aviary. I do love rain, its so refreshing.

@Former-MemberSorry to hear that you are battling sleeplessness. I can relate. Sounds like you had a lovely Christmas however. And well done for your daughter and her friend also. Clearly you are someone who people are able to open up to, and thats a credit to you and your ability to care, relate and sympathise.

@Faith-and-Hope- So sorry to hear how difficult things are for you these days. I havent read your full story about exactly what you are going through. Only reading snippets here and there. Do you have a thread somewhere that I can actually read whats happening for you? I just feel like I am stabbing in the dark when I speak with you, just on the edges so to speak. I'm sorry I dont mean to pry, and I dont mean for you to tell me your full story here. But if you have it elsewhere I would like to read it. Regardless, I know you are feeling low about whatever is going on. All I can do is to hope and pray for you and your family. I know your faith will pull you through.

@Former-Member- I havent seen you around for a few days. Just wanted you to know I have been thinking of you.

@utopia, how is your friend progressing in the Sydney to Hobart yacht race?

@greenpea,@CheerBear - hello to you all.

Sherry 

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