Hearing you @tyme I never wanted kids and it worked out that I would not be able to anyway without a whole lot of intervention (and it could still probably end in heart ache). I think, for some, part of a trauma background gives us a different perspective on bringing little people into this world.
It was only yesterday that I said to my Mum "I still cannot believe I have a dog and Toby is 10 now". She agreed. When I lost my first cat I was devastated then Cat came into my life very soon afterwards (so was meant to be). I still cannot believe she is gone (I still have her blanket and cushion on one chair she used the most). It is one place Clover has never gone near so she also must know how important it is to me. My Mum is worried about what will happen when I lose Toby - I try not to think about it as he is my world - but he is getting older and I will not have him for ever. I do know you won't see me here for some time when that does happen - life will be so different and I will have to find a way to cope (hopefully).
