Beginning each day with optimism and ending each day feeling hopeless.

[Kiks]

It’s been a few years of debilitating mental afflictions to the point that I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I am too ashamed to see friends and I just feel so mentally disorganised all of the time. Previously, I could focus all of my efforts to the task at hand whether it was study, work or another venture. Now, I hardly achieve anything and tend to self-sabotage without realising until after it has occurred. I feel extremely isolated. I don’t have anyone that I trust, any friends at the moment, and no supportive family. I sometimes see my partner but he doesn’t understand what it is like to suffer from mental health conditions so it is challenging for him to listen non-judgementally. I live alone and my home is freezing all the time. I can’t afford a better living situation. I keep living each day thinking when will I escape from this. My self-esteem is extremely low at the moment. I feel hopeless. I have seen a psychologist for a few sessions, but they are sparse and they have not been helping. I also spoke with a SANE counsellor but these sessions ended. I’m not sure where I can turn for help. I’ve tried to get better on my own but it has not been successful 

[Glisten]

@Kiks  Hi 👋🏼  I can identify with what you said. 
For me it was a variety of factors. More physiological than physiological.

Undiagnosed ADHD

Peri-menopause and menopause 

At the peak of a long term illness, I would start my day off by crying.

And 13 year Coercive control abusive relationship, gave me what feels like brain 🧠 damage. That will take time.

I have been fortunate to have a good GP.

Have you got a good GP that can help you?

[busyizzy69]

Hi, feeling similar as I'm not working, and I am living alone...too many hours in a day to try and fill. I just walk my dog about three times a day and just have out loud conversations with myself to try and keep myself company. I feel the worst as the sun starts to go down. I wonder if it's tiredness and also that I relate this time to when I imagine people going home to their families for the day.

[Sbee]

@Kiks i've been there unfortunately I empathise with you, exhausted some avenues, I am trying self help mind apps and don't follow the schedule, I was fortunate to have support to help set them up a lunchtime mood reset is my main benefit.

Good luck and take some you time maybe a drawing or crossword as much as I'll attempt somedays.