Dark thoughts scaring me.

[Tigga321]

Thank you both for you kind words,

Another day to get through, the days seem soo long, memories are awake, i try to distract myself but only last a minute or so then it's back in my thoughts again. 

[outlander]

Do you mind me asking what coping strategies you have tried and what sorts work for you? We may be able to give you some.more suggestions @Tigga321

[Tigga321]

@outlander,

ive tried meditation, listening to music through ear plugs, colouringin, games on iPad, cleaning house has triggers for me, once I swept, washed and polished the floors in our house, only to find that hubby threw  his ashtray all over the loungroom floor trod it in, and spread it everywhere, telling me to clean it before he woke up.  Yeah I know I'm pathetic. 

Grandy

[outlander]

No @Tigga321 your not pathetic at all ❤

Those are some good strategies you have there.. do they work ok for you besides the housework?

Do you like artwork too? Maybe you could try scrapbooking, mosiacs painting drawing or cars making to give you a form of distraction?

Do you journal at all? Maybe you could try journalling?

[Tigga321]

@outlander,

Hello, sometimes they work, but lately nothing seems to get me interested enough to even try..I tried music this morning but it just added to the confusion of my thoughts, I haven't tried scrap booking. Or don't have a journal. I can give those a try thank you..

im tired, just so darn tired of everything. 

[outlander]

Motivation affects alot of us so your not alone there @Tigga321 maybe buy yourself a start up scrapbooking kit and print of of your fave pics off and that includes quotes too that you can add in there.
Theres no harm in having a go. You may find either of them really useful if not that's ok too ❤

Im hearing you and will sit with you while you regain abit of strength ❤

[Tigga321]

thank you for sitting with me, it means so much to me..I will try anything to get my thoughts to sleep.  Only people I talk to are here in this sight, I'm scared to talk f2f with anyone, even physc, she has had patience but, not anymore I don't think because she said  on my next visit we will talk about what I refuse to talk about. This is causing me no end of stress thinking ways to get out of it. 

[outlander]

@Tigga321 you dont have to talk about anything your not comfortable with. If your not comfortable with your psych is there another one you could change to that has another approach thats suited to you?

[Tigga321]

@outlander

Soory I took so long to answer,

No I'm in a really small town 200 residence, one 1 psych. In main town 35 kilometres away. the nearest after that is near to 109 kilometres away. I am not safe driving my car I have attempted 3 times in my car before. I try to advoid my car as much as I can. 

[outlander]

no need to apologise at all @Tigga321 i dont expect answers straight away or a response if your not up for it.

well thats abit sucky isnt it- i mean only havng one psych. have you used helplines before? they are also there for you as well if you would like. 

hmm theres a thread on here with coping strategies would you like me to tag you into it and you can take a look at the suggestions there?