I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme.

Hows things?

I’ll tag you in my post about my psych appointment! 

[tyme]

I'll have a look @Captain24  🙂

[Snowie]

Well done for getting everything done @Captain24 

Certainly is you time now. You deserve it.

[tyme]

Wow @Captain24 . That's so so great to hear about your psych appointment. I think having that understanding can be so liberating because it shows that you are not doing anything 'wrong'. It also sounds very validating.

In a way, what she has said totally aligns with Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. The idea of just letting the feelings come and go. To watch and observe them, putting each thought on a leaf and watching it flow downstream. 

Thank you so much for sharing. In a way, that's why it's good to change psychs after a while. If you feel things have become stagnant and you are not getting anywhere, seeing a new therapist is like a breath of fresh air.

[Captain24]

There’s so much more I really should have done @Snowie but I’m trying to tell myself that it’s ok because I did achieve things today. 

[Captain24]

I’m trying really hard today to do what she said. @tyme. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s ok that I didn’t do as much as I should have. 

That big dark cloud is hanging over my head. It’s still really strong. I still don’t want to be alive. It’s not easy to not fight with it but it’s a lot less tiring. 

I guess it’s ACT she does do that. She did say to acknowledge the feeling and just let it stay there, don’t fight against it. I haven’t had much help with that in the past. She doesn’t do the leaves on the stream with me because I don’t see pictures. 

I’m beginning to think my old psych wasn’t qualified, or hadn’t updated her skills since 1950. 

[Snowie]

Some days its ok to just do nothing @Captain24 or not achieve as much as we wanted. And thats ok. It doesn't make us any less or that we've done something wrong. 

[tyme]

LOL. Sorry, I had to really laugh when you said she'd prob not updated her skills since the 1950s. @Captain24 

ACT is a relatively newer approach. But even then, it's been around for quite a while.

[Captain24]

I’m trying to let myself see it that way @Snowie 

She is in her late 50’s early 60’s. I actually feel sorry for her clients. She could be doing so much damage to them especially the young ones who don’t know any better, like I didn’t.  @tyme

Ehat have you been up to? 

[Captain24]

Alright.. this is where I need some advice. The dark cloud is swallowing me. It’s really consuming me. How do I try and sit with it when the noise is so loud. When my thoughts are deep and dark.