I'm in a nest

[Zoe7]

@Teej

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear your blanket looks awesome! I love the idea of you and @Former-Member crocheting together but not.

I was super struggling this morning but I talked it through with the wonderful Pebbles and I feel more ok about it now. I do still superly duperly miss CherryBomb though. It takes a looooooong time for my missing-someone feelings to settle.

[Teej]

Thank you so much @Phoenix_Rising, @CheerBear. I'm not sure what to say. I guess I wanted you to know that today I have been riding a very big wave for the very first time without defaulting to my usual way of coping with them. I think I've learned a lot from you both riding the very big ginormous waves you've had and it gave me confidence to try. I've had support to get through and I think I'll make it just now. Thanks for being such great role models here and giving me the confidence to try. 

I seriously have wanted to sneak into the nest all day. 

And @CheerBear i 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 the crochet. I'm in awe of those colours together. It looks fabulous.......I love the design too. 

💜🤗 & 🐢💐

@Former-Member I've been reading your stuff and thinking of you too. I know you are having a very hard time too and so glad you've found the best too 💜🤗💐

[CheerBear]

Thanks @Phoenix_Rising. I love the idea of crocheting with @Former-Member together but not too! It's amazing how forumland gives us a chance to have all kinds of adventures with people we wouldn't know if we bumped into on the street.

I saw that post happen and instantly wanted to fly to Sydney. I get how long and how intensely those feelings linger for you. My version of your K will be leaving my world soon. It's going to hurt a lot, but I will think of you and how even though those feelings really do hurt so much, they can be ridden out.

I'm guessing you're not far off bed now, so I'll say goodnight while we're here in real time 🙂

[Teej]

@Former-Member Best = nest which happens to be the best too 

thank you so much @Zoe7 for the flowers. I just saw them. Thinking of you too. I still check in with you every morning but by stealth these days......working up to being more visible again. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Teej I am on my way to bed but I needed to stop by and tell you how superly duperly excited I am to hear you had a go at riding the wave today without defaulting to your usual way of dealing with big feelings. It is SO HARD...but it does get a tinsy tiny bit easier with practice. Forum Land SUPER helps me to be able to ride the waves. It helps so much to not feel alone in the muddle.

@CheerBear I am super sorry to hear that your version of K will soon be leaving your world. It super super super sucks. I think my turtle whisperer and I will be talking about maybe finding a back-up turtle whisperer or something for if she gets squished by a bus. I don't quite know what that will look like right now, but I think I need something in place because the terror of losing my turtle whisperer is a big issue.

Anyway, now I REALLY have to go to bed. Night nest dwellers.

[CheerBear]

@Teej 💗💜💙💚

Thank you for being you teej and for being such a big part of why I love being here. That's all 😊

[Teej]

Thanks @CheerBear. 

Just wanted to share something with you because I know you experience something similar. It was 6 years ago today that I also had my last day at uni. I came home from uni very excited about my day when my Big Bang happened. I was studying web design (bachelor of media arts). 

Today when I saw you crochet (as I was already kind of back at Uni for a few reasons in my head) I thought what an awesome colour palette those colours would make for a web page. I guess it bought a fond memory of uni back too, something I used to be able to do. I'm not angry that I can't anymore but it was not maybe as easy for me to see how I could create a career out of. 

I'm sorry that you will be losing a big support person. It's definitely something I struggle with.....changing support people. I hope you get a new support person who is awesome. 

Thanks for your kind words above. 💜🤗💐

[Former-Member]

Nice to hear from you @Teej 💜💟
I'm so tired that I can hardly type, yet I have been trying to sleep since 10ish.
Thought I'd say "hi".

I'll see if I can find some wool in the house tomorrow @CheerBear @Phoenix_Rising 😊💜
Shopping lately is too much for me, especially in Spotlight.

I had a ✔ this afternoon. D talked me into going for a walk.

I haven't caught up on msgs here, but it sounds like you've lost your support person CheerBear. Sorry to hear. Hopefully the next one will be just as good or better.

My lady GP moved on and the surgery wouldn't say where. I tried the new GP, she was so bossy and stuck up. Thought she knew everything. Didn't want to give sleep meds which my gp is happy for me to have. Oh my gosh! I need some relief.
I googled and found my gp. Woo hoo! 😀
It's further to drive, but I've been to see her at her new surgery and am so relieved. It's actually nicer there too.
Even though it seemed disastrous that she'd gone,I found her again.
I think you'll end up with a nice new support person CheerBear

Anyway, hopefully I'll sleep now.

Night night CheerBear Phoenix Rising Teej and all. Trouble seeing and thinking now.
😴💗💟👋

[Former-Member]

Nighty night @Zoe7 @Mazarita 😴💗💟