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22-12-2019 10:52 PM
22-12-2019 10:52 PM
My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
Hi - I take 9 different medications each day for my various mental and non-mental illnesses. Because of that and my ECT that I had years ago, my brain is just flat.
I can't think for myself at times, and people give me a lot of crap over my weight 😞
I feel like nobody in this stupid world understands me at all 😞
Last week I felt like dying.
I just wish I could find some friends or something because I don't really have any at all. People are sick of me talking about all my mental health issues and mainly my depression.
My friends keep asking me why I don't smile. It's because I am just feeling so down that I have nothing to be happy about. Because of all the medications I take, I am pretty certain that I am going to die earlier than everybody else, due to the fact that they are poisonous substances.
I hate my life 😞
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23-12-2019 03:59 AM
23-12-2019 03:59 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
@soppykat Hey soppykat (cute name btw) and welcome to the forums. I know what you mean about hating to take all the medications and how poisoness they are in the long run. Unfortunately I dont think I will be able to be one of the ones who goes medication free ..... I am giving it alot of thought atm. You wont be alone here my friend there are many people in the same boat as yourself so you are amongst friends even though they are online friends.
My new years resolution is to get fit and there is a fitness thread called My fitness journey which you might like to have a look at. We are all at various stages of getting fit and are supporting each other along the way. Have you had a look at the Good Morning! thread yet it is a good way to say hello and introduce yourself to the other formites.
Anway take good care of yourself and dont be shy in saying hello to everyone. Love greenpeax
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23-12-2019 03:06 PM
23-12-2019 03:06 PM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
Hi - that is nice that you like my username - I am going a bit happier today, but I am still very depressed.
I just hope I have a good Xmas day, and not a depressing one.
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24-12-2019 03:55 AM
24-12-2019 03:55 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
Hi @greenpea - I am feeling really depressed still deep inside. I don't know what to do 😞
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24-12-2019 04:09 AM
24-12-2019 04:09 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
@soppykat Hey soppykat I cant talk now as I am going for a walk in a minute with neighbour. Will be online later. Take care of yourself. Love peaxxx
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24-12-2019 03:58 PM
24-12-2019 03:58 PM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
@soppykat Hey soppykat hope you are feeling a bit better. People are hanging around the Christmas lounge area if you want to come and say hi. xx
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05-01-2020 01:50 AM
05-01-2020 01:50 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
Hi again @greenpea - It is the new year, and I don't know how I am really feeling. As always, I try to put a brave face on. However, deep down inside, I am really depressed and near-psychotic.
I am still continously thinking about death all the time. I don't why I am such a pessimistic person either.
Help me someone please 😞
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05-01-2020 01:57 AM
05-01-2020 01:57 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
@soppykat Hi soppykat I am sorry that you are in such a bad place atm. Do you have a doctor that you can see next week sometime sooner better than later? We are here for you sweetie try not to despair.
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05-01-2020 02:00 AM
05-01-2020 02:00 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
Hi again @greenpea - a doctor won't do anything. I am supposed to be getting counselling or something like that, but I don't think their office is open until Monday. Also, I don't wanna be put into the ward again either.
I don't know what to do - maybe I could ring up Lifeline or something - eeek 😞
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05-01-2020 02:04 AM
05-01-2020 02:04 AM
Re: My brain feels flat and I am super depressed
@soppykat yes lifeline and there is the suicide callback hotline which is great because you can do it on the computer without talking on the phone. I have used them in the past and found them very helpful. I will be on for the rest of the night so you wont be alone 🙂