My special place

[Snowie]

Sounds like it has been a busy time for you @Eve7 

A roast sounds yummy. I like cooking one when everyone is home for the night.

With your coaching I'm sure your kids will do great. Do you go to the comp?

It's been a big 24hrs. Called but was a waste of time. Did something I shouldn't have.

Hi @creative_writer how you going?

[creative_writer]

@Eve7 just overthinking and blaming myself this evening. I probably should have dinner soon, maybe I’ll feel better afterwards.

What are you up to this evening? How are you?

@Snowie sending you lots of hugs💖🫂. I hope you are able to engage in soothing activities tonight

[Snowie]

I'm sorry your evening isn't going great @creative_writer 

Just managed some dinner here.

Just trying to get through

[Eve7]

I will go to the comps if I can stay well @Snowie 

Sorry things haven’t been so good for you.

Here with you too @creative_writer 

[Snowie]

I hope you can make it @Eve7 

Something to look forward too.

Got an appt. with my pdoc tomorrow morning. Written down a list of things I need to tell him. Hopefully I can do it. Just worried about what he will recommend and/or make me do.

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I think many of us have internalised stigma associated with mental health. It’s hard to rewire the brain after being blamed for your mental health.

What did you have for dinner? Do you have plans for tonight? Sitting with you here 💖

@Eve7 I hope you do get an opportunity to go to the comps 💖. I know stay well can be challenging. Sending you healing vibes

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I hope you find the pdoc appointment beneficial. Writing things down can help. I get so anxious before appointments I forget things. I found it helpful to record my thoughts so my psych

[Eve7]

I hope your appt goes well for you tomorrow @Snowie  

My pdoc’s office contacted me on Friday saying she was worried about me but I convinced them I was safe. That’s never happened before and I was scared there’d be someone on my doorstep. I think pdoc must have gone over what I’d said on Thursday. 

[Snowie]

It is hard @creative_writer especially when you get told that it happened a long time ago so you should be over it by now.

Had a beef curry and rice for dinner. Threw everything in the slow cooker this morning so that did all the work.

What's for tea at your house?

No plans for tonight. Just one step at a time.

Hopefully by writing things down I can say it out loud.

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I totally get what you mean. Years later I’m still having body flashbacks. Additionally, I’ve been traumatised in therapy before by one particular pdoc. I just didn’t know at the time it was a really bad fit. But I guess it has made me second guess myself a lot and wonder whether the reason I’m stuck is because as she put it “I wasn’t trying hard enough.

Beef curry and rice sound delicious. I had baked chicken with cucumber and wholemeal leb bread. I don’t really feel hungry so didn’t eat much.

I hope it’s not too hard to say it out loud. I’ve written thoughts that I am a bit embarrassed to talk about, but I do know my psych is there to help me