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[Snowie]

Hey @outlander 

M been at it again. She doesn't give up 😥

I read you got a lot of studying done, well done hun.

[outlander]

oh dear @Snowie and you were having a good day too. im sorry shes still at it, im not sure what to say that might help cause she seriously just keeps going no matter what your doing and its not fair on you 😞
Would telling H be any help? I bet he would say something if he overheard her ranting at you

[Snowie]

I told H already. He said that he would talk to her but that would just make things worse @outlander . She would never say it within ear shot of him.

Just have to try and out it out of my mind for now.

Have you got much planned tomorrow?

[outlander]

im glad you have his support @Snowie
its hard wanting to say something but also knowing it might make it worse as well. hes in your corner though and that's the main thing.

umm nope, still going to be in quarantine till I hear back and will still have to reduce my time out anyway as if its not this virus its more then likely another virus so its kinda contagious anyway.
ill be studying but im hoping my pay might come in a little earlier so I can buy some dvds or something to watch/do and get them sent here cause im starting to get rather bored. ive even run out of colouring books and pencils are very low now through useage so need to buy some more of those as well.
I cant crochet while im contagious as I usually sell the items and cant risk transmission unless I can guarantee no one will buy any for at least a week as by then itll be alright. better to be safe then sorry though.

what about you?

[Snowie]

Hopefully you gets your results back tomorrow @outlander 

Perhaps no news is good news hun.

Tomorrow I have my mental health course on. We cannot go in there of course so they are doing it via zoom. Just have to set up a quiet place for me tomorrow away from everyone else. Will probably just do it in my bedroom.

I so want to say something but I know it will just make things worse. I just have to shut my mouth and listen, but even that is getting harder.

[outlander]

unfortunately @Snowie in this case no news is good news isn't quite the case as ive heard some people who have testsed positive had to wait 7 days for their results and even healthcare workers had a backlog even though they were classed as urgent.

oh Im glad they've thought of alternative options rather then just stopping your mh course. I hope it goes ok for you. the bedroom sounds like a good place, im sure your kids could amuse themselves for an hour.

yeah I can imagine it would be getting harder and harder and I don't think you deserve to have to take it either. its not fair on you, even if it does take her time to process what you've said, her actions are her own responsibility. I know it doesn't work like that though.

[Snowie]

Well hopefully you hear something back tomorrow hun @outlander 

Hoping for you its is just a common virus and you can get well again soon. Still good to probably stay away from people. I am glad your mum is going to look after the kids too, you need rest from this regardless of the outcome.

I wish I could say something back but so be it. Today she told me I was punishing her and my B. She just doesn't understand anything about mental illness's.

[outlander]

fingers crossed @Snowie
ill let you know the outcome when I hear about it.

NO NO NOPE, that's absolutely not right what she said. all of of us here know the the truth, H knows the truth and most importantly you know the truth. I hate to say it but sometimes I wish I could say 'F$%k off ' to some people

[Snowie]

yeah, sometimes I wish I could tell her to go get f#*cked but bite my tounge (literally!)

Will watch out for your tag tomorrow hoping it is good news @outlander 🤞🤞

Am going to turn in for the night. Thanks for the chat, will check in on you tomorrow. I hope you get some sleep sweetheart, I know that you have some difficult days coming up and will be thinking of you lots sweetheart. 💌💌💌

[outlander]

goodnight @Snowie
I hope you can get some sleep tonight and tomorrow is better for you. sending lots of my love and virtual hugs 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜