My special place

[tyme]

It's certainly all a lot to contend with and as you said, it's a waiting game. You can't hurry the processes it sounds. @Snowie 

I'm glad you are doing what you can to stay safe. Hugs

[Snowie]

I've learnt quickly that the process is broken @tyme

I get frustrated at the people who are meant to help, but I know that they probably can't do much either. They have their hands tied too.

I'm scared to speak to pdoc and tell him what's happening in case he doesn't give me a choice.

I'm just trying to get through tonight.

[Eve7]

Sending lots of love @Snowie but I wish I could do more for you. 💜💜💜

[tyme]

One step at a time. Focus on what is within your control over what you can't control.

Moment by moment. @Snowie 

Hugs

[Snowie]

Thanks @Eve7 I know that things are hard for you too. Sending lots of love back to you 💗

@tyme control is something we all want, yet sometimes it feels so out of reach. 

Moment by moment it is.

[Snowie]

@tyme thanks for chatting with me tonight. I know how busy you are. I appreciate it.

Think I need to call scbs.

I hope you continue to feel better and be in less pain.

[tyme]

Hey @Snowie ,

Call if you need to. I'm sitting with you.

I'll still be around if you need company later.

Hugs to you. 

[Snowie]

Not much sleep last night and up early.

Took mum shopping this morning and then to an appointment for her.

Told her I had to be home by 1pm for a tele health appointment. Started on me about what happened and others just get over things so why can't I. Said a few more things but probably not appropriate for here.

Had tele health with psych. Told her some of what's happening. What I'm doing. She wanted to ring hubby. We compromised and I said I'd reach out before next time. She can't fit me in any earlier, she is full. 

Just breathe.

[Jynx]

@Snowie (I am gonna be a little bit facetious here, cos obvs I know its more complex than this but I just gotta let my cranky out... This is addressed to your mother, lol)

Maybe the reason Snowie can't 'just get over it even though other people seem to' is because those other people didn't have a parent breathing down their neck asking them constantly why they're not doing better! Maybe demanding wellness from someone is actually a really good way to shame them into further unwellness! Maybe you could try making space for Snowie's journey and accepting that it is her own and will take however long it takes!! 

Whooo boy... If I am this irritated just hearing about it, I can only imagine how much heavier it is for you living it. I'm sorry you have to deal with that darlin, sending you many big hugs 🫂🫂

[Snowie]

Thanks @Jynx 

I did tell her that she is welcome to go live with my brother. That didn't go down well.

She never has had a filter on what she says so even though it hurts, it doesn't surprise me.

I haven't got the strength to deal with her.

Moment by moment.