Oscillation between two mind sets

[creative_writer]

I am on edge, stuck between two decisions. Should I make the right one or wrong one? I need this pain to stop. I don’t know how much more my heart can take

[RiverSeal]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way @creative_writer and it sounds pretty tough rn. What has worked for you in the past when you have felt like this? RiverSeal 

[Shaz51]

Hugs my @creative_writer , sitting with you my friend 

Hope you feel better soon 💕 

[creative_writer]

@RiverSeal, yeah, I feel torn between life and just letting go. Everyone will be okay without me, I’m just another extra human being on this planet. However, for spiritual reasons I hesitate. I know this life isn’t permanent, we are all here for a short period of time, do I want to make it shorter? If I just have to hold on for a bit longer, I’ll do it, but I can’t hold on forever

[creative_writer]

@Shaz51 💖🫂. I’m utterly shattered

[Shaz51]

Hold on my awesome friend @creative_writer , keep on keeping on 

Holding you ❤️

[RiverSeal]

It sounds tough being in this state of mind @creative_writer and I get that things are tough rn. Please stay connected here on the Forums and keep sharing with your peers. Do you feel like you need a little extra support from crisis services this evening? It can be really beneficial to talk with someone when you feel like this, and I don't want you to feel alone. RiverSeal 

[Shaz51]

@creative_writer , xxxx

[creative_writer]

@Shaz51 and @RiverSeal, I did reach out to lifeline but I don’t know if I should again. I started to disassociate, but the feelings returned with a punch. I’m going to have dinner soon

[Shaz51]

What are you having for dinner @creative_writer