Riding a wave

[Sans911]

@Phoenix_Rising - 👋

[CheerBear]

I'm sorry your soul has died @Phoenix_Rising 😞

Night

[Catcakes]

I think your drawing is eminently suitable to posting on the Through my eyes thread.
@Phoenix_Rising

[Faith-and-Hope]

I agree @Catcakes @Phoenix_Rising ..... please do post it on the Through Ones Eyes thread .....

For all my painting skill @Phoenix_Rising, I have entered some major painting competitions and not been accepted amongst the finalists ..... when I see what has been accepted, I can also see that what I have produced was not what the6 were looking for .... and that’s okay .... in fact your ducks are probably closer to what they were looking for .... with complete honesty .....

The classical ideas about what makes a good drawing or painting were turned in their head by the Impressionists.  Your drawing is beautiful, totally valid, and I would love to see you sharing it on the art thread, if you want to.

I look for you in my Inbox @Phoenix_Rising and I miss you when you’re not here ..... just sayin’ ....

🐢🍃

[Former-Member]

Oh Wow, @Phoenix_Rising the drawing is amazingly creative. That is really quite an extraordinary result from those wee squiggles and soooo much more interesting than anything I could have managed. *thumbs up*

Thank goodness for wonderful therapists! How awesome to have such understanding. 

I hope the day is being kind to all of you @Phoenix_Rising @Faith-and-Hope @Catcakes @CheerBear @Sans911 @Zoe7 and anyone else stopping by. 

[Zoe7]

@Phoenix_Rising found these on the beach I take Toby to today... thought of you straight away 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Good evening on the ocean,

@Zoe7 I super like the pictures of the rock stacks. They look just like the one you post a picture of so often! 

@Catcakes @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member thank you for your encouragement regarding my picture. I had a peek at the through one's eyes thread this morning....um...nope, I don't think I'll be sharing my pictures there for a little while. Maybe I'll get brave in a few weeks if TTT and I keep on playing Mr Squiggle, which at the moment it looks highly probable that we will. 

Thank you to everyone who dropped by on the ocean last night. I really do feel ultra disconnected from everything and everyone now. I simply feel nothing. Where does one turn for support when the source of support has become the source of so much grief? I simply do not know.

[Zoe7]

I hoped you would like them @Phoenix_Rising - it brought a smile to my face the closer I got to them - all I could think about was you 

I hear you on how hard it is when the source of support has become the source of so much grief - I have been feeling that way for many, many months now. I am trying to re-connect but there is always in the back of my mind - what is going to come next and that is not a nice place to be sitting  Whilst our situations are different it does not stop the 'is it worth it' or 'what have I got left' feelings or the anxiety around seeking support of any kind - so I hear you little turtle and wish it was different for both of us 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Thanks @Zoe7. It is so so SO hard now. The HC was my primary source of support besides TTT.  TTT made a note of which day was phoning day and kept reminding me that I had that support outside of seeing her. Now it's just me and her. When we were talking about the attachment stuff on Monday and how I need to actually have interpersonal relationships if I'm to have any hope of addressing my attachment issues she quipped something like ok, so you have 50 minutes a week of attachment...er... 

I really am completely screwed now. 

[Zoe7]

You also have your volunteering gig and violin @Phoenix_Rising and although these are not by any means the same - they are still connections that you have.

You have very strong attachments here - especially with CB and I know you are very fond of Bookish and SunShower - so that is 3 people that enjoy your company even if it is only on a screen - that does matter little turtle because you matter here...with us you matter