Riding a wave

[Former-Member]

Sitting with you ... @Phoenix_Rising  Keep breathing ... 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member big panicking. There's NOBODY. I don't matter. There's NOBODY. I followed the rules. I used email. But no one will respond. No one will talk it through. Super flooded. Need help.

[Former-Member]

@Phoneix_Rising just saw this hope you will be ok ❤️

[Phoenix_Rising]

There's no one, no one, no one, no one. 

I do not matter,

I'm only one person,

Destroy me completely,

Then throw me away.

I follow all the rules and yet still I just keep getting hurt more and more. I don't know how to keep on keeping on. Big scared. There's no one, no one, no one, no one. 

I need help...but there is NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

@Former-Member

[CheerBear]

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@Phoenix_Risingwrote:

@CheerBear and I have decided that you have discovered the ultimate solution to sleep issues. 

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Definitely this. I'm looking forward to mentioning to my psych that a Flinstone's character solved my sleep issues with a witch and a broom 😁

Dropping this off for you @Phoenix_Rising. It's a mega special four plus two one and has been since teeny tiny ones. I think all of those things about you, and have a feeling I am not alone here. It doesn't undo the other messages, but I am hoping you can hear and believe these ones (even in a teeny tiny way).

Edit- the linky thing changed I think (or I am scrambled)

[Zoe7]

Whether you can recognise it or not @Phoenix_Rising you matter to us here. I understand you need that connection IRL and need to be able to talk talk to someone but if you were not around the forum you would be very much missed. Do not underestimate how much you would be missed because it would be - for some of us - like losing a friend. I know you do not do friends but even not-friends can be missed when they are not around. 

Here sitting on my rock stack and listening little turtle.

[Phoenix_Rising]

 @CheerBear there's NOBODY!!!!! WHY can't I call the HC. Why are 24 million Australians allowed to call the HC and one little turtle who can't? I just need someone to talk to. I so so so SO need someone to talk to right now. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What do I do? Big wave, big big big wave. Why is the message always "reach out for support" but there's no one to reach out to? 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Zoe7 I need someone to TALK to. I need a human being HERE. I need to hear the voice of another human being right now. I've tried and tried and tried to seek help with the muddle. No one wants to talk about it. Everyone has buck passed until there's no one left to pass the buck to. I have followed all the rules. I followed all the rules with the HC. WHY can't I call. I am invisible, I am worthless. I do not matter. I need help. I need HUMAN CONTACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Former-Member]

@Phoenix_Rising

You matter to me

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[Phoenix_Rising]

I super badly want to die right now. The rule used to be that when I felt like this, I should call the HC.What the f*ck do I do now?????????????????????????????????????????