You are a beautiful, creative caring soul ..... and probably mark is just wanting to be heard and understood. He doesn't have to be mean for that to happen .....

Breathe @Bubbles3, and take your meds if you are due them. You have to help your dr's to help you ...... by complying with your meds
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You will be safer and happier that way. We could tell very quickly when you came under treatment before ...... and we love having you here ..... but mark has to behave.