@Phoenix_Rising WOW WOW WOW 

Such an amazing insight into yourself and how both your body and mind react to 'triggers'.

I am still trying to work through this myself and you have helped so much in describing in detail what happens for you. I can see some of these things in myself also.

I am not going to write you a long response to each right now as I need to re-read your post a few times to take it all in - your post deserves the respect and thought from me that you yourself put into writing it.

What I can say is - any time you feel those waves crashing over you and need a safe corner of the world to just 'be' - bring your blanket and toy turtle and curl up on the floor making your weird noises here with us. It is a really safe little corner of the world here where we do listen, we do care and we do appreciate what you have to offer.

And we do also tend to write a lot on some occassions - so @Phoenix_Rising you fit right in!

Hope you have a great day today and if you really need to be connected - we are around. Otherwise jump on tonight some time and tell us how you are going.

Thank you so much for your very considered and thought through post - it really has helped