@utopia Bugger - I was hoping for a virtual loan!!!! lol  I feel for the poor cow too - would definitely have had 'performance anxiety' - maybe material here for another t-shirt!!!!!

No two visits in two days is definitely not normal.  My sister does come around every few weeks with her dog and we do go to the beach with our babies together occasionally but it's usually in nice weather so we can go outside. I feel a bit 'closed in' if we are inside together!

@Phoenix_Rising My sleep is a real issue. Usually 3 or 4 hours is the maximum so 6 hours is great.

My issues around darkness and sleep are really complicated and not easy to explain - especially when it is starting to get dark now and I don't want to think about it. Hope you understand 

There is only some bits of 'my story' on here anyway @Phoenix_Rising There is really very few specific details - more generalisations. Sometimes you don't have to know toomuch to be able to relate to someone. 

@utopia and I have had one similar experience and we seemed to connect really well on this thread because of that. We also both tend to write copious amounts at times and that is definitely where you fit in well 

@Faith-and-Hope also keeps me going with both her stories and 'words of wisdom' - especially late at night when I am really struggling. 

Both @utopia and @Faith-and-Hope have been real life savers for me over the last few weeks when I have been in a really bad place. Could not have got through it without them - and I am not over exaggerating - I would not still be here without them