@Faith-and-Hope I was checked for glandualr fever last year and that was ruled out. That's when the tests were done over several months for post-viral fatigue - so don't need to use a smoke screen because I know that is still part of why I am so tired all the time. That really exacerbated my MH issues and sent me on the downward slide so quickly - I just didn't have the physical energy to fight it. 

@utopia I'm so sorry you still have him in your head. Tell him to bugger off and find somewhere else to be! - I'm telling him to bugger off for you also 

Have a sleep if you need to - chat with me if you want to - go outside and talk to your plants - meditate  - do whatever you need to do to help yourself tonight.

Here for you my friend