To everyone...

I am unable to follow or respond to most people at the moment - so if I do not post please do not take it persoanlly - I just do not have the energy or am in the right headspace to even think clearly.

Added to my already 'rock bottom' mood is my lack of sleep, sore throat and losing my voice - it feels a bit like physically losing my voice has also translated into me 'mentally' losing my voice. I have little to give and my mind is so confused that I am not sure what tonight, tomorrow or the next day may bring.

I know there are a lot of people sitting with me, holding my hand and supporting me - but I just do not have the energy left to keep up with everyone - or even myself. I am in a very. very dark place and I am using every tiny little bit of strength that I have to stay alive. 

Please do not worry - what will be will be - and while my heart still beats there is still some hope.

Look after yourselves and each other and I hope I can be part of this wonderful community in a more meaningful capacity again one day...

All my love and gratitude to all my 'friends' on here...

Zoe