I am starting to get a much better picture of what it is like for you sometimes @Eden1919 I do get the safety thing - not wanting to move and being hyper-vigilent when the fears take over - as any little movement or thought could bring on the danger. It is a really scary place to be - and it is not just in your mind - it consumes every inch of you - there is no room for any rational thought as all your instincts and thoughts are solely 'survival'