@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Pepsimax It has been a very long day - GP then blood tests, straight to DBT next. I talked to the psychologist today who is one of the facilitators and told her how much I was struggling with it all. She told me that is ok and to give it as much time as I need - with no pressure.The pdoc who is co-facilitationg tried to push me but the psych stopped her as she could see how uncomfortable I was - so although that didn't put me totally at ease it did help reduce my anxiety a little.

I had lunch with my mum - it went okay - it was a good thing we only having a very small time frame and  then off to my pdoc appointment - which was hard. She seems to think I am doing well with DBT - because I have stayed and are still doing it! We discussed what we did earlier in DBT and how I have been over the last week. We also talked a little about megoing to work last week and how I coped with that. Then it was the usual 'safety' talk and how I am going with that - I was honest with her 

I am so tired - fell asleep as soon as I got home - but think I will still be able to sleep tonight. I have already had my meds and can barely keep my eyes open - just need to hang on a little longer so I am not up in the middle of the night - after the day I have had that would not be the safest thing to happen for me 

I hope everyone passing through here has had an okish day - at least had some glimpses of happiness and hope