@Zoe7 that is ok getting through each day is a big thing in itself. I might go shopping if i can but that is about it I have had an ok ish day today which feels very weird but i am hoping tomorrow is similar although i am worried about my sleep because i have not been to bed before 5am for about 3 weeks now and i think i am really ruining my sleep pattern but also i am a bit nervous things will get super bad and i will end up in the dreaded place again. anyway i am in a weird mood but an ok one.