It's not just one or two things @Owlunar - there are many - and I think some of the comments made by some of our newest members of late have really solidified my own feelings - when new members are seeing similar things that I have been then how do we expect ANYONE to join this community and feel safe and supported. I can totally 'see' where they are coming from. 

There are things that have been happening that are 'obvious' to us all here but there are more personal things for me that continue to hurt or cause me distress - and I know that if I even began to approach these things on here then there would be no 'winners'. It is a bit like not talking about my past - there is no point - it won't change what has happened and I can't get past it.