Oh Hon I can only imagine how hard this is for you  You want so much to 'keep' your family together but at every turn it seems to be pulling further and further apart. I know you are strong but having to deal with all this is definitely taking it's toll - I can 'see' that and I hate that you are silently suffering under the weight of your situation. It is so easy for others to say it will be okay - but we both know the reality is that it may not be @Faith-and-Hope and I am sure that is in the back of your mind and something you are struggling to keep there for now. I do hope that it will all turn out in a positive light for you and your family and that you can all begin to heal and repair the strained relationships that presently exist. Whatever the path may be, and how ever it begins to 'unravel', I will be sticking very closely by your side - holding you up when you feel you cannot stand and shining a light for you to be able to see when the darkness descends.

Hugs and hugs and hugs sweetheart