I did smile when I saw the delivery of chicken soup to TOR for both of us @Faith-and-Hope - and you do seem a bit cheeky today 

It was the worst night I have had for some time - both flashbacks and nightmares - so awake a lot of the night  I knew I was not doing well earlier in the night - couldn't think and although I attempted to reach out for support I just didn't have the energy to deal with it - so I retreated into what I know - that pretty dark and lonely place for me! I really hate being in that place and although I took extra meds early last night I did resist taking anymore in the middle of the night - so lets call that a win!

Today I am keeping Toby very close (not that he is ever very far away) - I need to be able to feel him right next to me today