Hi @hanami @Shaz51 @Oaktree @Appleblossom @Kyle @Meowmy 

Yes - it's good to be back - I do have something to share that has been making me very unhappy - something I can and will deal with.

For a couple of years now my daughter has been criticizing me - I have tried to be patient and explaining things to her - this has been pretty destructive for me - and I have given up.

Finally I told her that I felt invalidated - and no - I have not told her what she has said that has discouraged me - I believe we can think whatever we want to about other people - and it is polite to keep this to ourselves - so why tell her?

All day I have felt as gloomy as Melbourne weather - I will survive it - I think the hard part is that I have - in the past - forgiven her and I also have been dishonest - not telling her how I feel - though any effort to do so was pretty useless.

So - she sees it as an ultimatum.  She is allowed to - after all - I do tend to give other people the last word and she hung up on me with that word - the conversation was about 4 minutes - hardly worth the effort - darn.

We were drifting apart - this would have just become more disastrous - I had to say something and it's up to her. 

I told her several times that I love her - she did not respond to this - it's a strange thing to me that she wants her millions of privacies - I am not allowed to have one. Actually - I have a lot of secrets she knows nothing about.

It's hard for me to write about the tough parts of my life - right now - I need to.

I will be okay - I will sit this out and time does part. I told her my door is not closed to her. I don't think she heard that.

It has been tough sorting out my tech issues which have been in my DVR as well as my computer - I am sorting out the issues in my life - I feel really tired though.

Thanks everyone

Mumma Bear

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